Friends With Benefits

Chapter 17

I sit at home thinking about what happened today in school. I really do not know why I kissed Matt. What was wrong with me?

Did I kiss him cuz I felt bad not feeling the same towards him, or because I needed to get my mind off things.

I sigh and lay back on my bed. I stare at the ceiling Justin's face popping up in my head.

'Why can't I get over him and just move on?'

I let out another sigh. I close my eyes and try to sleep. Tomorrow is the last day of school before we leave for Thanksgiving break.

I don't know what I'm gonna do for Thanksgiving. I usually go over Justin's place, since my mom is barely ever home. But Justin and I aren't talking, so I am not going to his place this year.

I guess I'm just gonna stay home and watch movies all day as I stuff my face with all my favorite kinds of junk food.

*next day*

I walk into first period. The first person I see is Justin.

I'm not so mad at him, and I hope he isn't mad at me either.

I throw him smile when he looks up at me. He looks away and starts talking to a girl, I think her name is Becca.

I frown as I take my sit at the front of the room, faraway from Justin.

I guess he is still mad at me. But, he has no reason to be mad at me. I did nothing wrong. He's the one who said he can't just be friends and stormed off and hasn't talked to me since. I'm the one who's suppose to be mad at him.

Maybe he's mad because of what happened yesterday? I don't know, but still. He kisses another girl in front of me, and yeah, I was mad. I'm not gonna deny that. But I got over it. Why can't he?

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I'm walking down to lunch when I feel someone place their hand on my shoulder and turn me around to face them.

"Hey, Beautiful." Matt smiled.

I fake a smile. "Hey, Matt."

I'm surprised when he kisses me. I push him away. "What are you doing?"

"Kissing my girlfriend," He stares at me comfused. "am I not allowed?"

Girlfriend? When did this happen?

"What? When did you and I get together?"

Matt frowns. "I thought we were, since you kissed me."

I shake my head. "That was just a friendly kiss, Matt. It didn't mean anything." I said realizing how harsh I just sounded.

Matt's expression turned to hurt. "It meant something to me."

"Matt, I'm sorry, but you know," He cuts me off.

"I know. Don't even say it." He turns around to walk away. "I won't bother you again. Promise." He walks in the direction the front of the schools front doors are and stormed out of the school.

I look down. I'm a horrible person.

"That was interesting," I heard a familiar voice say behind me. I turn to face Justin. " 'bout time you tell him you don't feel the same way." I stare at Justin.

"You're such a jerk." I murmur under my breath.

"What? What did I do to you?"

I laugh sarcastically. "Are you really gonna ask me what you did to me?"

"Umm.... yeah, since I have no idea what I did." He looks confused.

I shake my head. "You're clueless."

He sighs.

"You want to know what you did?" I ask.

"Uh, yeah." He says in a 'duh' tone.

"You're being a jerk. I gave you a chance for us to start as friends so we could build up to a relationship, but noo, you didn't want to. And I had myself thinking that you really liked me and that you would do anything to be with me," I look down. "I was wrong."

"Izzy," Justin starts but doesn't say anything. I shake my head.

"You don't need to say anything." I start to walk away when I feel Justin grab my arm and turn me around to face him.

We're only inches away from each other.

I stare up at him. Before I know it, he's kissing me and I'm kissing him back.