The thudding music never seemed to end, I could hear it everywhere I went, evan when I wasn't in the club, I wish I didn't come. Why do I have to be such a doormat? Can I not stand up for myself? I could see Lisa grinding on someone. It was disgusting. Why do people find pleasure in doing it? Everyone who came here was disgusting. I know I'm here too but I didn't want to be here, I just didn't want to be know as the fridged and nerdy girl. That's one of the reasons I hate highschool, I'm in my sophomore year and I hate it, I mean, I like the school and facalty it's just the children I hate. Everyone there is discusting. I go to a public school so there's over 3000 people in my school where I was periodically offered drugs and kids got drunk at party's every other weekend, defiantly not my thing.
I don't act myself either,because if I do I wouldn't have any friends. So at school I'm the gurl that hangs out with the populor girls, so that made me the populor girl too, and to remain the populor girl I needed to do things that I didn't want to do like drink, bully the nerds, go to party's, mitch classes ext. But i didn't want to, but I don't want to be the weirdo with no friends evan more. In reality I was a shy, socially arkward, nervous wreak but noone exept my family knew that side of me. So that's why I'm here.
I sat on the wooded broken stool, sipping on my water, I just wanted to go home. I pulled my phone out of my hoodie, it was half 1, this place closes at 2 am so I only had to stay here half an hour before I could go. I spotted Rachel coming my way, I pretended not to notice her, insted I just continued looking around and drinking my water, I hated that girl, she's the one who told me my life would be better if I did all these things. She sat on the stool in front of me, I cringed at
how short her white denim skirt was, I could literally see half her but. She tapped me on my shoulder. I turned my head to look at her, here we go again.
"Hey how come your sat over here by yourself, we're at a club, not a libery" She said as she sipped on her cocktail
" I know, I'm just tired, I danced so much today" I said as I threw a fake chuckle in there
" oh really?" She said as she gave me a stink eye " who did you dance with" She asked as ahe smirked at me
Shoot, what do I say. At that point i just wanted to spit at her caked face.
" oh, they were all in one big group, they left a few minutes ago" I said and took another sip of water.
" ok" She said and took another sip
A wave of relief came over my body, she bought it.
" well, why are you drinking water, that's boring, why don't you drink the cocktail I'm drinking, all the other girls are drinking it" She said as she took my water and poured it all over the floor. At that point, I just wanted to get up and go home, but i knew I couldn't.
" yeah, I did want to get it but I forget my purse at home, and I just found 2 dollars in my pocket and this was all I could buy" I lied, restraining my arm from swinging at her. If there was one time my 7 years of self defence classes would pay off, it would be now. The sad thing is was that i was lying so hard. I had promised my mom that I would never drink again after I had come home hungover after the girls forced mt to take 15 shots.
" well let's me get you one, it's not fair that your drinking water while we're all drinking out cocktails" She said as she slammed 15 dollars on the table
" one hot cocktail please" She shouted at the bar tender. Oh god
" oh no its fine I couldn't possibly take your money, I can survive a Day without alcohol it's fine" I said as I picked up the money and handed it to her, another reson I didn't want the drink was because I know I'd throw up after drinking it, I heard that it sets your mouth on fire and it burns the back of your throte and it feels like acid in your stomach, I would embarrasse my self in front of everyone and all the mitching classes, all the bullying and everything in between would be for nothing.
" oh no its fine, belive me. Daddy's get his paycheck today, he's getting his 500,00, it's less than usual but it's fine, belive me" She bragged as she slammed the money back on the table just as the drink arrived, I picked it up and the burning smell shot up my noes making me sneeze
" thanks babe's" I said to her
" no problem" She said
The just sat there and stared at me. She knew,
She knew I couldn't handle it,
She wanted me to embarrass myself.
I lifted the drink to my mouth, the smell became stronger as it shot up my noes wich nade me sneeze.I tried not to gag. I poured the liquid into my mouth and right away it felt as if flames were dancing on my tounge. It burned to an infuriatingly degree and as it ran down my throat, it left heaps of pain as it went down my chest. long after I had swollowed it,. my mouth was still on fire. I felt I was going to be sick and my eyes were watering. I looked up at Rachel who had her hand on her chin, smiling at me. I looked up
" omg, gurl thanks for the drink, your right it's delisiouse" I said as I took another sip.
" no problem girl, if ya need anything, I'm here for you " She said as she got up and sashayed away, as soon as she was out of my sight, I got up and dumped my drink in the bin, ordered a small bottle of water and chugged it down my throte. The burning went down a lot but my throat started to sting b it bot a bad stinging, this stinging brought me plesure...
Just like my cuts....
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A/N
Thanks for reading the first chapter. Make sure to vote and comment improvments. Remeber this book is ender editing so there are going to be alot of loopholes
Thanks and wear your seatbelts
~I🦄
