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Rape

Just about anyone you meet these days have a story to be told about rape, Rape is a serious topic its a binding of hurting or pain caused by your emotions and never feeling good enough, your are left to feel completely used and broken and I just want to shine a light out there. IT DOES GET Better! So here goes my story.
When I was 9 years old I was raped, I was a scared child I became filled with depression and anxiety, i never told anyone because I was scared, till this day the only person that knows is me, and my God. As you would say how could God let something as bad as this happen, well good question I asked myself this daily until I hit the age of 15 and learned that I can sit around and sulk on the fact I was raped, or I could take the punch thrown at me and try to live the best life i could and leave it in the past and that's what I have done. It's not something I can just tell people, or bring up because it does hurt but it is a serious topic. Everyday children, women, we go through this and we blame God but honestly with out having him to look up to I don't know what I would do. Cast all your stones on him because even when you think it's his fault remember everything happens for a reason, and even if they are bad and you feel like you just can't get away from the slump your feeling taking your own life is not worth it. If you feel like you need help or you need someone to talk to go get help! Do not feel like you are alone because you aren't. There is plenty of us who goes through this daily. And I just want to let you know it does get better, things get easier, and with time you will make way greater memories that the pain and suffering you feel like your going through will be so far in your brain you forget. Don't feel sorry for yourself and don't think this is your fault. It isn't. Your not alone. Life is tough and sometimes you have to learn to roll with the punches and never ask God why instead thank him for waking up each day and pray to him that you need help and relief from the burdens your going through. Because he is there. Rape is serious and if you feel like you can't tell anyone trust me it's alot harder to deal with alone. Get the help go talk to someone because in the end they deserve to rot in hell for hurting you. I was in your shoes. I was scared I wanted to hurt myself. And I never told anyone because this person just happened to be related to me, so now I see him all the time and it still hurts and I can't say anything to anyone because he is family. And it's not okay that he hurt me but it's life and you have to learn to forgive and let go because at the end of the day you can hate everyone and sin, or you can love God and he will sort through them later so love everyone. You will make it through this rough patch, I know I sure did and it made me one hell of a strong women. Keep your head up and don't abuse yourself. Your doing the best you can!