I'm Broken and Bruised.

Chapter 2

Chapter 2:

Class ended and we started walking to lunch. “How’d you do on the test?” ally asked. “Umm.. we didn’t get them back yet. She forgot to grade them.” I lied again, hoping she would forget about it and never ask again. she might be mad if she found out she waisted all that time helping me study and I got a bad grade. We went to lunch and even though I said I wasn’t hungry, Ally made me eat. I didn’t throw up everything I ate, it wasn’t that bad, yet. but most things I just can’t kep down, and this meatloaf would probably be no exception. I guess i wasn’t good at hiding my depression because Ally looked really worried at lunch. “Are you okay?” she asked. “Yah” i lied, faking another smile. “No you’re not. Sarah, don’t lie to me” She said with a serious look of concern on her face. I didn’t say anything. “Sarah” she said looking like she was going to cry. “follow me.” She got up from her seat and I followed her out of the lunch room and into an empty classroom. “Ally, what’s going on?” I ask, a little nervous. Before I could react she pulled up my sleeves and looked at my wrists. I didn’t fight, what’s the use? She obcioudly knows if she’s looking. She sat in one of the desks and just starred at the chalkboard a few feet inform of her. She looked really pale. “Ally, i’m sorry.” I said. “Why are you sorry?” She said with tears in her eyes. “If anyone should be sorry, it’s me. Was I not a good friend? Why didn’t you come to me?” She started crying. “No, you’re a great friend, that’s why i didn’t tell you.” I started fighting back the tears. “I didn’t want you to worry.” I ended, deciding to stop before I completely lost it. She got up and embraced me in a big, long hug. I was surprised that she wasn’t mad at me. She was mad at herself, but why? I hugged her back, after pulling my sleeves back down so she wouldn’t have to look at them. She started sobbing. I couldn’t hold it in anymore and let it all out. Both of us were crying and hugging for the next few minutes. “Sarah” Ally said, releasing her grip on me. “Please, please get help.” She said, she never stopped crying. “I won’t be able to live without you.” I told her I would think about it. “Ally, I’m fine, i promise.” we started hearing people come down the hallway which meant lunch was over and before we know it, people were going to come in here. We both dried our eyes and together, walked out of the classroom and into a sea of teenagers. some of them were walking with their friends, but some, mostly boys, were running down the hall, screaming for no reason at all. Ally pulled a granola bar out of her purse and made me promise I would eat it. We went or separate ways to our separate classes. I made a pit stop to the bathroom first. ‘Good, it’s empty.’ i thought as I let the door slam behind me. I threw the granola bar away then locked myself in a stall. All I ate for lunch was a little of that nasty meatloaf. My doctor said i was a healthy 130 pounds, but she doesn’t know how much I want my stomach to be flat. It’s not flat. I want to be able to wear a bikini like my friends and I wasn’t going to get that way by eating. I needed a minute to process what just happened. My best friend just found out my biggest secret. How did she know? She blamed herself, why? She’s been nothing but nice to me. She’s my best friend. seeing the pain and the hurt in her eyes made me want to stop. I know I need to but i don’t know how. It’s so hard and I deserve what I’m doing to myself. I’m worthless, or that’s what I’m told everyday by pretty much everyone except Ally. Even my mom said i am. I had my back against the stall door as I slid down until I was sitting on the floor, trying to decide if I should keep the meatloaf down or not. I buried my face in my hands letting out a few helpless sobs. The bell suddenly rang, marking the beginning to next hour. I didn’t even care. I just wanted to be alone. Suddenly, I heard the bathroom door open.