Dear Library Love

Dear Porter

Dear Porter,

I remember when our eyes first met, you blushed and hid behind your book. I think that was when I fell in love.

I never really knew I liked guys until I met you. You made me realize that I can love whoever, who cares what gender they are? Everyone is beautiful in their own way. You were beautiful. You were the most beautiful human being I'd ever laid eyes on. Who cares if you're a guy, you're still beautiful. Girls aren't the only beautiful creatures on earth.

I loved you a lot. you were my sunshine. You made the library shine when you smiled. You were what made the library special. Without you, the library was just another library. The librarian quit after you jumped. She couldn't stand knowing you weren't there to watch me. You were her favorite visitor, I bet you didn't know that. She thought you had an amazing taste in books. She too, thought that your were a beautiful being and that you were special.

You were a rainbow in a sky full of clouds.

Whenever you smiled, my heart raced. I always wanted to press my lips to yours in a kiss. I should've kissed you sooner than I did. I should've. I am angry at myself for not kissing you earlier. I regret it. I would'dve gotten to enjoy the sweet look on your face earlier. After our first kiss, your cheeks were red and you had a dazed look on your face. I knew you wanted another kiss because your eyes trailed to my lips after they met mine in your daze. I loved how cute you were.

I think I know why your favorite color was black. Despite myself thinking of you as a rainbow amongst clouds, you felt as if you were just another plain cloud. You thought you had no vibrance or meaning. I thought you you were the world. You were sad. I heard from the orphanage you parents died in a house fire. You survived it. I'm glad you survived it, I got to meet you. I wish you were still here. That doesn't make me selfish does it?

If you were still here, we could have a family together. I would never love another person. I still can't love another person. I am going to continue loving you for the rest of your life. I am going to continue living so I can carry on your memory. I can honor your memory. No matter how heartbroken and lost I am, I will carrry on. No matter how much I want to join you, I have to stay strong because you inspired me. Even though you were sad before I left, you stayed strong. You just stayed strong for too long until you broke.

I wish I hadn't left you. I should've run away so I could be with you. I will never be able to go back in time and do anything to stop all of this tragedy to happen. If I could, I would go back for you and save your parents. Then, you wouldn't have to be at an orphanage. Hopefully, we'd still meet. I think we would still meet, because I think we were meant to. You taught me what love is. You taught me what it feels like to experience more emotions. I was always cheerful, never believing in love until I met you.

You changed me; for better.

I will love you forever, there are not enough words to say to you. There are not enough words to describe how much I love you. There are not enough words to describe you. I hope you will forgive me for leaving you. I never wanted to. I hope that you are happier wherever you are now. You deserve happiness. You deserve the world.

I will join you someday, I hope that when I do, I will be able to see that beautiful smile and hear that amazing laugh.

I love you, now and forever.

Love,

Adriel

P.S. I still love you.

P.P.S. I already said that, I just want to make sure you know.

P.P.P.S. I'm crying. Again. Still loving you.

A/N: This is the end. I hope you all enjoyed the story as much as I enjoyed writing it.