Feelings - Cameron Dallas

Chapter 12

I felt so bad. I wanted to go give him a hug. But why would I? It's not like he likes me. I think? I don't know, I get so distracted when I think of him and it just makes me even more confused.

I continued to pass the volleyball back and fourth until 1st period was over. I could tell today would be stressful.

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Well, schools over and Cameron didn't look at me once since the incident and he didn't even talk to me. But he talked to Halle..

Yes, I will admit it did hurt part if me inside. I just don't know why I'm so hung up on this guy. I wish I wasn't. I can't really concentrate on anything thinking about it right now. I need to think about other stuff. Then I start thinking of what collage I might want to go to. I have a very strong chance of getting into Harvard, but then again I might want to go back to Michigan to go to Michigan State university. If you haven't caught on, I'm not staying in Cali for collage. I'm thinking me and Amanda could get a scholarship for volleyball but hey.

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It was Wednesday and the dance was on Monday and we had Tuesday and Wednesday off for a mini break I guess.

And to be honest, I really didn't want to go to the dance with Matt, or the dance in general. Last time I went to a school dance, I was made fun of the whole time. Keep in mind I had no friends what so ever. There were 3 bullies that always bullied me. There was Brent (Rivera) , Jack (Gilinsky) , and Sammy (Wilkinson). Yeah. I they were hot, but they were bullies. Not to mention I dated Sammy for like 2 years. That was before I got bullied by them. And that's how it started too.

Sammy and I were always the best of friends. We basically called each other brother and sister. We've known each other since 2nd grade. We went fishing in my grandpas boat, went tubing when him and his family went up north, and we even went on a jet ski ride when we were in 7th grade and got stuck in the middle of the lake. Turns out we didn't get stuck, it just turned off and we had to start it up again. Sammy was my first everything. My first kiss, my first boyfriend, my first love.. Don't get me wrong, I love Sammy to death. But people change. Memories don't. It's funny how everything can change so easily, and quickly. I still remember when he asked me out. We were in 7th grade. It was at my grandpas and we were waiting for him to come home so we could go tubing. We were sitting on the dock. We weren't those awkward, wannabe 7th graders, we were the kid 7th graders who were full of youth and happiness. We were looking for fish in the water when he asked me,

"Hey Ally. Would it be weird if you were my girlfriend?" He asked.

"No. Were best friends anyways. Nothing would change." I smiled.

"Great! So you're my girlfriend now!" He smiled.

2 strong years and we were still going. Or so I thought.. And we were going into 9th grade. There was a school dance and I went with Sammy. He said he'd go get some lemonade and he'd be right back. 20 minutes passed. I went to go find him. I looked in the library which was closed, but who pays attention anymore. And I looked in the back of the room to see Sammy and one of the popular girls making out. I held back tears and accidentally let out a whimper and then my world broke. Sammy's eyes went wide and the girl had no emotion on her face.

"Ally I can explain!" He said.

"Oh yeah?" I replied my tears falling down my cheeks. "How long have you guys been dating?" I asked.

"9 months." Smiled the girl.

I ran out of the school and all the way home. I cried for days. Sammy texted me and called me saying that he wanted me back. And I said no. But when freshman year started, that's when the bullying did too. I snapped out of my thoughts when I felt something wet on my cheek. I went to get a tissue and worked on my homework.

I didn't eat dinner that night. I couldn't. I fell asleep at like 4, and I didn't feel good at all when my alarm went off.

"Hey mom." I yelled.

"Yes honey?" She came walking in.

"Can I stay home today? I don't feel to good." I said. I hope I could get away with it because my mom and dad are doctors.

"I suppose. But you're father and I are at work today." She said leaning up against my door.

"Okay." I said. She came over and kissed my head. "I love you hon." She said closing the door.

And with that, I slept basically the whole day.

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