The Girl Behind That Smile (Connor Franta fanfiction)

Me, Myself, and I

Hi! My name is Samantha Clark. People always call me Sam. I live in Los Angeles with both of my parents nothing special about me. Actually I happened to have a twin sibling but she or he (idk about that.. Haha) died when we're in my mom's womb so yeah I'm the only kid I have no one that I can spend my summer with. When all kids my age are with their family and having fun but here I am sitting in my own room all alone in from of my laptop. But I really enjoy it though I'm used to it. I actually enjoy its company. I know maybe you will say "what's wrong with this kid?" I actually prefer being alone rather than being left alone.

"NO!!!!! WHAT DO YOU THINK YOU'RE DOING F*CKERS?! HOW COULD YOU DO THAT?!"

Oh no, not one of those moments again. Yeah that's my parents. They're fighting again, they can't spent a day without fighting. Even if they can, trust me it only last a few days. Well, since you guys just heard that thing I'm gonna tell you guys the real story.

Actually, my parents have got into divorced since I was 4. And I don't understand why they still manage to live together. Hmmmm.. Actually my father had moved out and when I was 9 he moved back in but they're not getting back together.

Okay.. We're moving on swiftly to my life outside of the house. I don't wanna talk about my family too much because it gives me pain in the ass.

My teenage life is not as interesting as it seems. I only have a few close friends. You can see me hanging out with my friends but none of them are really my friends. Best friend is only a formality and a label in my case. Best friends are supposed to be there for you and supporting you right? But those things don't happen to me. They only come around when they need me but when they don't? They ignore me, they don't even bother to text or call me. It's not that they don't greet me when we meet. But I feel like I'm being used. I'm always here for them but what about when I need them? I don't wanna answer that.

This kind of situation creates who I really am. I don't really care about what people think, I don't care about boys or love. Does love even exist? The only thing that exist in teenagers' brain is lust. I always see a lot couples sucking each others' faces down the hallway and they disgust me. I still believe in the existence of love but maybe I have my own definition of love. Love is when your heart is aching and you're sad the moment you see them sad, when you don't have to care what does she/he look like. You happily accept their flaws and accept them for who they really are. That's the main point. But I hardly see that happens to any of my friends. All boys care is just your appearance. Boys like that deserve a slap with a baseball bat. I swear to God.

Sometimes I even think that I don't need friends because I know, they will leave me even they've promised me. I hardly trust people yes, I have trust issues. Everything that I've been through makes me think more than twice to trust them. My mom always says that I'm heartless, I'm not supposed to be a girl because girl should be sensitive. All of my what so called "close friends" say that sort of things to. But with a different manner. They say that I'm tough, I'm strong.

But guess what? They're wrong. I notice all the things that have happened in my life. It's just I'm trying not to let it get to me, there are some points where I break down and I cry myself to sleep. They just don't know it yet and they will never know. They will never know who's the girl behind that smile.

A/N:

Hey guys!! This is my first story everr.. I've never written anything like this before so I hope you guys enjoy it.

This is just the opening part where Samantha tells you about her life. I promise I will write wayyyy longer for next chapter. If you guys like it please share the link and if you have any suggestions don't hesitate to comment :)

Lots of love, Leoni