It’s killing me, once again
Your traces remain
And they torture me
It’s killing me
I turned around like you’re a stranger
But why am I so lonely?Everytime I look around, there's still things of you that I couldn't erase. I threw all the soft toys you gave me, at least I tried and I should but still I did not, I kept them in the storage. There are still those over sized clothes of yours that I couldn't get rid of it, I keep telling myself its gonna be such a waste to throw them away. Even though I knew I can just donate them. The room we used to share, the living room where our memories hold, even the park that's few blocks away still have those traces of you that's killing me inside.
I thought I’d be indifferent about breaking up
But there’s one habit of yours that I have
Not being able to throw things away
Foolishly, these feelings remain
Something that feels like regret
Opposite from you who is doing great
I’m half deadThat day, I saw you. I was happy you know, all happy and such but then the person that's making you smile is not me. I wasn't the person standing next to you, I wasn't. Your smile is still the same, those bunny teeth sticking out, you still stand out in the crowd no matter how unstyled your hair is or how you just simply put on a regular T-shirt. Me? I thought I'll be the same but no. They told me I changed. More grumpier than before? I don't know, I don't feel like continuing anymore, you're not beside me anyways.
I didn’t know the weight of this break up
I was selfish, I ignored your tearsI'm the one to blame, I hurted you way too much. I blame the immature me, I blame my ego but in the end it's still me. Can I say I was too young so I didn't know the weight of this break up? We all know the answer, don't we?
I remembered that day when you're crying in front of me, I never thought you had this side, Jiwon. You're though, cheerful and full of swag and yet you're crying. Not happy tears, but heartbreakingly sad ones. And the cause of it? Me. And what did I do? I ignored and walked away with a "Let's break up, Jiwon"
It’s killing me, once again
Your traces remain
And they torture me
It’s killing me
I turned around like you’re a stranger
But why am I so lonely?
Killing meTo you now, I'm nothing more but a stranger. You tried to stay as my friend but I pushed you away, I got what I wanted, us being strangers. But why do I feel so lonely when I was the one who made all these decisions? Shouldn't I be happy?
Killing me
Freedom and new relationships
But behind that is an empty heart
On this dark night, I’m alone again
This isn’t right
His existence is such a big part of my world
I try but I can’t take him out of it
Once I did take him off, I broke down
But I can’t tell myself to be ready to die
So it’s killing meNo more calls from you when I'm still outside at midnight, I'm free to go anywhere, do what I want. Isn't that what I always wanted? Drinking at the bar, partying hard, but there's always this feeling inside me. Unconsciously, I pulled out my phone and hoped that you might call amd ask when I'm not home yet but you're not doing that anymore. Those dark nights, I'm so lonely. I gave up on going to all the clubs, I just stay in this once "our" so called home.
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Killing Me | DoubleB
FanfictionYour traces remain and they're torturing me its killing me