Mackenna

7

It has been 3 months since the vacation and everything in my life had gone back to normal, well not everything was normal.I sat down on the toilet floor as i emptied the contents in my stomach into the toilet bowl.
It had been going on for weeks now and it was getting on my nerves.I can't sit something down in my stomach before i start pouring it down the toilet
It was disgusting and terrible.
I rinsed my mouth,wiped it with a towel and went back to the room.I sat down on my bed, my head buried inside my hands ...it was 3 in the morning.
My mind started wandering back to christian, what was he doing?, was he back with his girlfriend? then i remembered the words he said to me.....alex words at the wedding.. everything clashing in my head.
Few weeks back i saw alex on the paper,his hands wrapped around a lady's waist whose face was hidden from the cameras.I cried a little.
I know my story is pathetic....but how could he be having so much fun while i was still like this....sulking over him...?
I could'nt get my sleep back, so i went downstairs to get a glass of milk....I need to see the doctor tomorrow....i thought to myself while enjoying the milk.
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I called in sick at the the office and made an appointment with my doctor.Emily could'nt come with me because she was busy at work and i didnt want my mum and daddy to get all fussy. I had to this alone...i waited patiently in the lobby.
"miss hogan" a nurse in blue scrubs called from the desk
"yes ma'am" i answered.
"ma'am dr fisher would love to see you now."she said smiling. I smiled back and went into Dr fisher's office.
"Hello mackenna..."dr fisher said his beaming smile exposing his set of white teeth...if he was'nt 50 and married with children...i would have gone for him.
taking a seat in front of him..i greeted back smiling too.
" how may i help you today darling?"
"emmm ...i think i have cancer!"i blurted
"cancer?" he repeated his brows raised as he scribled something into a book.
"what are the symptoms ?" he asked
"nausea, dizziness, i sleep a lot you know, my boobs aches...i get all moody and my back aches"
" well mackenna i won't say that is cancer darling...have you taken a pregnancy test..?????"
"nope" i answered fumbling with my fingers ....
"so when was the last you saw your period?" he asked
"4 months ago"
"are you sure?" he asked before writing it down...
then it hit me where this was going... the swollen breast, the puking...oh my God it all made sense now,
"mackenna..uhm with all this symptoms ...you don't have cancer dear but a baby growing inside you..."he admitted..chuckling at my little assumption ealier.
i was carrying a baby....another human was living inside me....my hands went down to my stomach.....i felt it,it was bigger than usual...i thought i was eating too much but i was not ...it was just my baby growing inside me..it was christian's baby inside me... i was smiling when i remebered the last convo between christian and i..then i became sad again.
"mackenna ...are you alright?"
"yes doctor.....am ok" i said forcing a smile...i don't want a doctor knowing my pathetic story..i looked down at my stomach rubbing it softly.
He gave me the no for an obstetrician.
I called her ..fortunately she was free to take a scan...
so i went to her office she seemed nice...and she was beautiful in her blue scrub and the white coat doctors wear...
Her name tag said HELEN MATTEWS...Alex mattews...then i remembered when we joked around calling me that name ..but i was'nt going to cry because i was moving on now..with my beautiful baby...
i laid down on the soft bed pulling my shirt up..
"sorry it is going to be cold"she said before squeezing the gel on my small bumb...the bumb i didnt realise was there already..
"ok let's hear your baby's heart beat..." she said moving the wand on my baby' bump..
"oh dear"i muttered
she smiled at me ..i smiled back..
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I waited patiently while she went to print the picture of my scan...later we sat down opposite each other...
"well good news...mamma you will be done with you first trimester tomorrow and you will be entering the second ..that one is exciting cause you are out of the danger zone ....you will have to come back for a check up next week and we can find out the gender of your baby....i will give you some vitamins..you are going to be having some minor symptoms like gaining weight, weird cravings,stretch marks and some other ones... but i assure it going to be fun just eat lots of fruits and drink a lot of water with your vitamins ...." she concluded with a smile. i thanked her and left her office...i called emily, luckily she was out of work. we met at the railway taccos shop....
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"oh my God!" she screamed causing everybody in the resturant to look at us... she mouthed a sorry afterwards..
" emily that was loud"
" yea ..i can't believe you are carrying christian's baby ... have you told him yet..."
"don't be ridiculous em...why will i tell him remember what he said to me....i don't think i want him to know about it and you are not going to sneak behind my back and tell him ok"
she shrugged popping fries into her mouth.
" dont give me that look ok..am going to mom and dad tonight and i hope they...don't get mad .."
"and will you tell them when they ask of the father ?"
" i will figure it out."
she sighed giving me that obnoxious look again.
" stop it"
"i wish i could...but you are to sturborn to understand you are dong the wrong thing "
"let me be em"
"ok ok ...i will let you be but don't start crying when shits backfires to you"..
" whatever em"...we changed the topic spending the evening together before i finally took a cab home.
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" Am home mom" i said removing my shoes and changing into my slippers ..when the voice i least expected called my name.
" hey mackenna ...missed me lil sister?" i looked up to look at her... she stood at the door post,her slender body in my clothes...and a smile beaming on her botox lips.
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my sister hannah