After all this time I find myself alone at night wondering what I did wrong to deserve this. I gave you everything I had! My food. My home. My money. And my love! And yet because of you I have so many sleepless nights asking myself what I did to you for you to cause me pain!You left me broken, in tears, numb,scared,and worst of all I thought death was my only choice.
Most people say I did it for attention but every suicide attempt was a cry for help. I plea begging people to help me! And yet nobody would! The scars on my legs tell another story.. the story of how I need to feel in control of my feelings but yet I have to grab something sharp and cut my body to feel in control. I must feel pain to hide my emotions! Nobody cares to notice the silence I have given! My quiet voice earning for help! Pleading inside, every bone aching and asking to be put into place.. but the one thing that seems to stay broken us my heart..
If only you knew.. if only you knew the pain you put me through..
