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My luck is just terrible these days.

I can't get a moment's peace around here ever since I lost my temper that day... But, I can't really blame myself for what happened. Chenle was in danger, and none of us could've known that any of this would've happened.

Unlike last time, I woke up in my room, thankfully. It's way more comfortable than the infirmary.

I wonder how long I've been asleep this time...

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I left Zachariah to meditate in my room so I could check on Renjun, again.

It's been two days now, and I don't know how long it'll take him to recover this time. I haven't been able to sleep or meditate peacefully...

Jaemin keeps telling me to have patience, and Chenle tries to make me smile, but apart from Chenle, Jaemin is only making me feel more guilty. He sacrificed himself for me, and what could I do?

Nothing.

I acted recklessly, and put Jaemin and our family in danger. It all happened so fast, but I wish I still could've tried to at least do something...

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I held my head down the whole time I made my way to Renjun's room. I shamefully walked into his room, not bothering to knock, only to find him awake.

"H-Hyung?!"

"Jeno~!"

"Y-You're awake!"

"That I am~. How long was I out this time?"

"Not that long thankfully~. It's been two days"

"Really?! That's great! But why do you look so upset?"

"O-Oh... It's nothing..."

"Don't give me that... Come tell me what's wrong"

He insisted, patting the side of his bed.

I gave in of course. I slowly walked over and sat down next to him.

"I'm terrible hyung..."

"How do you mean???"

"I put not only you, but Jaemin and the rest of our family in danger..."

"What??? How??? When???"

"Alistar and Luca... They were gonna turn you into a monster. I wasn't thinking rationally... I ran and took the needle away from them without a plan, and I ended up becoming a hostage"

"And they were gonna use it on you right?"

"They were, but Jaemin came for me, only for them to launch the needle towards him..."

"WHAT?! WHERE IS HE?!"

"He's fine. Nothing happened to him, but I'm to blame for putting him in danger..."