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Yoongi

Requested by Luna-the-Demon

Same thing as always. Here in the bathroom cutting myself over and over until I'm satisfied. I've been doing this ever since I was 12. I've been picked and bullied on ever since I was little. I'm just a thing that everyone plays with at school. Bandaging my cuts and cover it up with a long sleeve shirt so no one can see. There's no reason for me showing off my skin when I'm mostly getting beat up at school and me cutting myself at home. My parents died when I was little. I was shuffling from relatives to relatives until I decided to live on my own. None of my relatives cared about me. All they said is that I'm the one who killed my parents and that they wished I wasn't born. I don't mind because I've gotten used to it after hearing it over and over again. I look into the mirror and put on a fake smile before heading out of my apartment. I saw my boyfriend, Yoongi waiting for me outside. I went up to him and he smiled at me. "Morning Y/N." He gave me a kiss. "Morming Yoongi." I continue to fake my smile towards him. I always feel guilty on not telling about Yoongi about my depression. But I don't want to tell him.

"You've gotten a bit skinny."
"Is that bad?" I look at him.
"Aniyo. I'm saying you should eat more. I'm getting worried about you."
"I'm fine Yoongi." I smiled to make him feel a bit reassure.
"Y/N if there's anything you want to tell me, just tell me."

I look down before giving him a fake answer. "Okay." We were about halfway from school and I continue to walk forward while Yoongi was far back giving us a far distance so no one at school knows that we're dating. Why? Because Yoongi is popular at our school. Especially Reina, the popular foreign girl at our school. She has a crush on Yoongi ever since she came here. She picks on me the most so I wouldn't expect from her is she stops picking on me. She's basically everywhere with Yoongi which hurts me but what hurts the most is Yoongi picks on me too. Though he apologized after school, it hurts me a lot. It was the one condition Yoongi said when he asked me out. In school, I'm just someone who gets pick on a lot but outside of school, we're a couple. I basically hate it. I understand that he doesn't want me to get hurt more than now but I want to show off that we're a couple just one day at least. But Yoongi was one of those people who doesn't want to show off their relationship with a loser just because they're popular and doesn't want to lose their popularity. We've been dating for a year but still doesn't want to show off our relationship. If it was for my ideal type of men, he would be willing to give up his popularity for love but not Yoongi. I guess it's time to call things off. I don't want to be treated like this anymore. I was stopped by Reina.

"Hey Y/N."
"What do you want this time Reina?"
"Nothing. Just want to chat." She smirks.

I sigh as I gave up on everything. The next thing I knew was her group of friends was surrounding around me. One of them was about to do something until my friend, Sleepy showed up. "Yah stop this!" The girl scattered and Sleepy came up to me. Sleepy was my only friend. He's also popular but he gave it up and became my friend. Other than Yoongi, he gave up his popularity. The reason why was because he doesn't want girls to keep on bothering him. Ever since Sleepy was my friend, he saved me from most of my bullied moments. He grabbed my arm and saw my bandaged arm. "You cut yourself again didn't you?" I nodded. Sleepy was the only one who know about my depression.

"I told you to break it up with him." He covered my arm.
"I'm gonna today."
"You better."
"Sleepy mianhae."
"For what?" He look at me surprised.

I rarely apologize to anyone so he's mostly surprised.

"For everything."
"Oh no need to apologize."
"But you gave up your popularity for me."
"That's because you're a true friend so I'm willing to save you from any danger." I smiled. "I also don't want to see my friend always sad."

I gave him a small laugh which he instantly smiled. "Thank you Sleepy." "Anything for my friend." I smiled. We both walked to our class and I saw Yoongi hanging out with his friends ignoring me as always. Sleepy patted my shoulder before heading to our seats. We decided to chat for a bit before the teacher came in. I was laughing and smiling at Sleepy that I somehow always made Yoongi jealous and sad that he can't always do this for me.

*Lunch*

I felt something hot pouring down on me as I was eating. I showed no emotions as that's what everyone wants. Showing an emotion will make everyone pick on you more. I got up and head to the restroom with my bag in my hand. I lock myself and lean against the door. I took out my knife and started cutting myself. I heard one of the girls coming in. Probably fixing their makeup. She came to my stall and I knew who it is. It was Reina. "Oh my gosh! T-There's b-blood! Gotta get someone!" She ran away. As if she would get someone to come and find me because I was the only one who went to the restroom. I bandaged my cuts and quickly clean up my blood before Reina comes in with someone. I changed my clothes and left the bathroom just like that. I want to the rooftop and texted Yoongi.

You:
Yoongi I have something to tell you after school

Yoongi:
Why?

You:
Just hear me out

Yoongi:
Ok. Later

I look at the ground as I finally made my decision.

*After school*

Me and Yoongi were walking on a bridge. I was on the side balancing myself while Yoongi was making sure that I don't fall. I stopped at the spot where I wanted to jump off and pretended to look off distance. Yoongi also stopped and asked, "What did you wanted to tell me?" I look at him sadly. He must have notice it.

"Yoongi let's break up."
"Huh?" His eyes widen.
"I said let's break up."
"I know but w-why?" I could see tears in his eyes.
"I can't bear with all of this anymore. From my depression to our one condition I can't.'
"You have depression?" He look at me shock.
"Ever since I was little. I didn't tell you because........You're slightly making it worse....."

His expression was the same.

"I was fine being pick on with everyone but you as my boyfriend, also picking me on. I hated it." Tears were falling out of my eyes. "You know Sleepy gave up his popularity right? I thought you were gonna do the same when you asked me out but I guess reality took over my imagination."
"But it was for the best."
"It was for you but not for me!" I raised my voice.

He was more shock since I never raised my voice at him. "I wanted you to show off our relationship and give up your popularity but you didn't want to. I stayed in silence as I wished that would happen but it seems like it never would happen. How would you feel if you were in my place? Feeling even more depressed that your lover chose popularity over love? That's how I feel right now. I'm sick of being mistreated and everything." I slightly put my foot off the bridge. "Y/N no!" "Annyeong Yoongi....." I fell back into the water. I couls feel my whole body shutting down. Probably I took off my bandages off before coming here. I smiled as I faintly see Yoongi trying to save me. I'm sorry Yoongi. I love you.