When it rains it seems as if the whole world is at peace & nothing will matter until tomorrow morning. Tomorrow morning i know will be the same as the last. My heart will hurt the same & my body will be numb. I'll wash my hair for the first time in a couple of days under cold water in hopes of it cooling down the blood boiling under my skin. The bags under my eyes, prominent as always, will be covered by concealer that's two shades too light. Regardless, i'll smile at the strangers i pass by at the store,
because they all hurt too.
Every time i pass by something that reminds me of you, my breath will hitch but i'll move on. I almost stop breathing because everything reminds me of you. The car ride home will be silent. My headphones will provide me with a calming distraction. Rain that hits the window remains unheard but is acknowledge with a slight smile of comfort. On my way to the room i hear " What's wrong? " i only say nothing & shrug. In the corner of my eye i see my dad's shoulders heave after a heavy sigh, as if to say " I give up " but its okay,
because i do too.
When everyone is asleep the house falls silent, except for the thunder. My cat asleep next to me acts as a safety blanket for the anxiety trying to build in me. A certain peace surrounds me in the moment & my eyes feel heavy as if i haven't slept in ten days. Blue bubbles of messages pop up in the corner of my screen. I know my friend is hurting but as am i & i would be no help. I'll trust that she has the love of the boy who could not love me to help her while i'm distant. The tears that form in my eyes cause the thoughts i push aside to resurface. Though i say i'm better, i realize i am the same as before. Even then, i type a message. For the boy that broke my heart & the friend who doesn't know he wants hers,
" Goodnight "
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All What We Deserved
Teen FictionLife gives many lessons while we're young to help shape ourselves in the future. We can persist that what you hear about in movies & books can't be true in real life but we all have our movie moments. We sing songs at the top of our lungs, fall hope...
