I'm back. I'm not only stronger but I'm now wiser , smarter and harder. With the help of many elders of my family, I understood the real meaning of life, friends and its people.idn't feel okay with who I am, with who I was. We all feel insecure. We all have made mistakes that we can mostly include them into our "childhood mistakes". These teenage years during which we are trying to be more mature, wiser & older. My cyber nightmare began 3 years ago, joined the internet, which arrived lately to our countries because we are developed countries with no connection no hope no food, lack of water, nothing. I've met tons of people, many accepted me, but easily forgot me, no longer contacted me, many didn't accept me, neither did I, but the few ones, I still keep in touch with, still here to help in any form. My friend, Kim, have helped me in everything. She made my voice be heard louder. My 19.000 Instagram followers stick with me when I had mostly some suicidal thoughts due to some successive panic attacks or depression or the accumulation of my asthma symptoms, linking it with my overweight body. Consequently, every boy at school are either skinny as h*** or musculary as f***, that's a must be. Everyone keeps staring at me, at my ass because boys 'asses should be smaller and girls' should be huge but ugh they can't even think and react correctly for god's sake. This is the reason why I hated existing being in my generation, communicating with elders or young kids under 10 is way better for me. I feel more understood, loved and I'm having a full life-experience. Today was the day that I felt like I was the favorite from my grandfather's grandchildren. (Maternal) It is the same for the paternal ones, because I almost come every week meanwhile i spend months without seeing my other cousins, meanwhile i help my grandparents by transporting them, taking them to the toilet, feeding them and helping my disabled uncle. I've already lived 18 years. There's a lot more to still study and learn about. I do give a big importance to what happens in my surroundings, I keep in touch with all the world's news, politics, philanthropy, ect.. I'm proud that in succeeded in doing thing that a 18-Year-Old teenager could have never done. I have fought for my future, my siblings and my parents who provided me with everything I need. This is just an introduction to my life, maybe a future writing career, a singing one and an engineering one at the same time. I'll be also come back to play some play piano lessons again. These 4 days I've left the platform and disappeared from this cancerous spotlight made me feel more loved, comprehend and understood. The ones who just bullied me are just teens, with an empty non-educated brain and a too-judgemental personality. After years of pretending of leaving the dark, I have truly left it, for real. I had an imaginary beautiful summer surrounded by elders and babies. I guaranteed 90% of my family's confidence and unconditional love besides the real concurrence between my cousins. I credit my happiness to first god, the Quran, the Prophet Muhammad, my parents, my family, my teachers, my followers, my friends and mostly my idols 1D, Liam, Taylor and Selena which all of them combined have a heart of gold. It's time for fight and survive. Nothing is worth being silent. If you're bullied, raped, hsrrased, depressed, sad, tell someone about it, I will as soon as possible create an Instagram group chat and I guess there's already an app for that about helping others. I was truly involved since years by investigating in philanthropic & humanitarian actions online, I visited twice a center disabled kids, I brought many chocolates, they were happy besides all the pain they do feel. My next step, is to go another country, USA, there's a higher average of cancer, many of them are stuck in hospitals. I want to go to shop with all the money I'll take from my bank account, bring 5 huge packs to each kid full of games and clothes. Same goes to the homeless poor needy people, I would do even more. To summarize with, for me, humans are divided into two parts, the one with big hearts, who sound exactly like older generations, we must belong to it and reunite. The second one is held by homophobic, racists, supremacists, anti-religious, bullies, thiefs, devils who never belonged to us. We must protect our kids to not he affected by this type of people who have lead others to suicidr and death. I will be their parents' voices, I will fight for their voices. No one should be treated in such a bad way. Kill them with kindness. Spread love but be a snake too. Stand up for yourself when it's necessary. I'm happy this is the first Wattpad shit I've ever wrote, excuse my language mistakes haha. I just wanted to thank you for enlightening my life, I've been saved many times by lovely people. I've actually lost 2 brothers, they died at young age, one of my parents used to have cancer but we are all happy besides everything. I'm trying to make my parents forget all this pain, until now I felt, but as I'm joining the university, I'll be working my ass off studying. I'll do my best. No more failures or obstacles. Nothing is gonna stop me. Hopefully people will be more accepting and respectful. And here's a toast to my real friends, I love you, and to the ones who never stopped of putting the blame on me, saying I play the victim and steal from people oh shit but karma works harder than all your fake ass plans speaking shit about me behind me, you have 0 courage, blocking me and not saying it to my face doesn't hurt at all. You are just a normal bit who actually dmed me. That's internet. It's bots, we find beautiful people but also band ones who can be elders dming teen girls their dick pictures I'm disgusted ew but women rose up above all their shit. Sisters, Karma works harder than everyone. The light is coming to bring back everything the darkness stole. I love you all, sorry for the length or the nature of this article. I love you. Good night. Instagram: - snakedirectioner 💚💚💚
