My life is meaningless and I hope to die soon

Why is this happening to me?

Why am I so lost? I can not bear it. It 'is really painful. I hope to be happy. Once I hate this to happen to me. It's really painful
Why should everyone leave me? What have I done to you?

I loved someone because I trusted him and he was my best friend and one day I saw him and he saw me in front of my eyes. He really played and I was like a puppet. I was not shocked. I was shocked by his time. Why did he deceive me? Why did you really burn with all my heart? My body could not leave you. Once upon a time my body started to fall. I die then