Heartbreak

Chapter 2

I wish i was still that girl
If only my heart was as cold as i pretended it was, maybe i would be able to let go of this.
The tears come back as the memeories come flooding in.

I bit my lip and didn't blink as i stared at the mirror and fell to my knees just crying...Just wating for the end.

I can't keep doing this, my heart shartterd to a million pieces and in some else's hands.

He robbed me of my most prized possession and left me for someone else.

We were suppose to be together forever thats what he promised..but its true promises are just ment to be broken.

I picked myself up and walked towards the room we once showed the amount of love we had for eachother,

The room where we created a heartbeat that i never knew until he left.

"I want to live for you but how can i if i can't live for myself ?" I said to myself as i caressed my belly.
"Your father was suppose to be there for us every step of the way, He was suppose to protect us and love us;
He left us to burn and walked away as the fire burned our skin and we screamed in agony."

I closed the door and turned my back as i walked away from it, i need a sign.
A sign to say i still have a purpose

I dressed my self and curled my hair,
practiced my smile and held my head high and i swore i saw a glimpse of my old self

I took my purse, journal and something else and headed out for the first time in five weeks.

The once fresh hair smelled like poison to me; The happy faces brought a frown to my lips; The happy couples walking hand held around me made my eyes glossy with unfallen tears.

I entered the train with no destination in mind.

I lay my head against the window and thought of the past that i wanted to let go of; To let go i must face my past for i had not just my future but my baby's future to think of

I took out a paper and a pen and wrote to my first obstacle

"Dear Other Women"