It's Okay I'm sorry

Justin

( Came in the room closed the door. Took a rope I had under the bed for so long. But first let me write this letter to my best friend Christopher)

"Picks up a book and ripped off a few pages... begin writing"

Go ahead and call me a coward
And say that I'm not strong, because I'm not like you
Go ahead and call me crazy
Cause I lived in a maze for so long, tell me how about you?
I think I live in my head, cause nobody really understands what's going on
Sometimes I think that I'm dead, so I hide behind my youth
Know I been losing my mind
And I'm little behind, step inside my shoes
Cause I never been happy with myself
And I don't need no one feeling bad for me
Trying to offer me pity and throw jabs at me
Behind closed doors, JUST CLOSE THE FUCKING DOOR "FUCK"!
Let me be by myself, just me and my damn self.

(Starts Sobbing) (continues to write)

I'm tired of living, I cry
I hear it's easy to die, I wanna see for myself
And I know that sounds stupid to everyone else
But I'm depressed as fuck, stressed as fuck
Ain't no medication that could cure what's the test as drugs
I mean, I need extra LOVE
And at the same time that ain't even enough, said that ain't even enough
And WHERE THE FUCK IS GOD?

(Screams out loud) "Damn, FUCK! "

(Christopher downstairs in the living room. Stopped what he's doing and looked up to the ceiling wondering what is going on. But he ignores)

( Justin continues to cry and write)

Damn, maybe I don't believed in him enough
But today we gonna see if he's real
And if HE is, I guess I'm going to hell
Look, I ain't wanna die like this
I ain't picture my life like this
They don't know what it's like like this
Pretending to be happy so I can smile like this, and laugh like this
Sometimes I wonder if I ever act like you
Could I finally fit in and maybe relax like "Waw!"
Or would you feel lost without me?
Cause honestly, I think the world is better off without me
And my mind's spinning, this is the line finish

( Justin wiped his tears and took a deep breath. Continues to write )

The truth is I don't really care how they feel about my feelings
I made up my mind, I'm going out like Robin Williams.

( Justin tied the rope onto the ceiling and takes the other end of the rope and raps it around his neck and kicked the chair he was standing on back. The rope snaps and he fell to the floor hard)

( Christopher got up feeling worried and he slowly walks upstairs to see what's going on)

( Justin started crying and took his dad's gun he had hiding in the closet..... Justin started writing for the last)

I guess I'm not the ordinary people of John Legend and I've been suicidal since the day I was nine.

( Justin cranks the gun)

Okay, the day I was 9, I was bullied, couldn't stay out of fire
Grandma my mother told me I should take it one day at a time and FUCK, look at me now

( pen runs out of ink) ( Justin started talking to himself)

"Pen running out , shit, Fuck, ughhh! Hell this shit.. if you're reading this, it's probably too late)

( Christopher arrived at Justin room's door and started knocking asking "Yoo, Justin are you okay?")

(Justin pulled the trigger and killed himself with a bullet to the head)

.....Justin wishes.....
(Just make sure you tell my family it's okay, I'm sorry
But it's too late, I'm sorry, so much weighing on me
I don't wanna live to see another day, I'm sorry
But I can't stay, I'm sorry, so much weighing on me
Just make sure you tell my family it's okay, I'm sorry
But it's too late, I'm sorry, so much weighing on me
I don't wanna live to see another day, I'm sorry
But I can't stay, I'm sorry, so much weighing on me)