Jayden....

Chapter 2 Gasp!

Jayden's P.O.V.

"Jayden! Get your worthless ass out of bed now!", my father, Paul, screamed. I stumbled out of bed and hurried as fast as I could to his room. I already knew what he wanted. 

"Ready?", he seductively smiled. He was laying in bed naked with a hard on waiting. Waiting for me.

I nodded my head and hesitantly walked over to the bed. You see, Paul does things to me that no father should do to their kids. I never actually knew what he did was wrong until my sophomore year health class. The topic was child abuse. We saw all kinds of videos on kids who were sexually abused by a member in their family. At the end of the video, there was a number and website for the sexually abused.

I thought a lot about emailing them, but I just couldn't. I couldn't just leave my friends, and who knows where the hell I'll end up? 

I slid my hoodie off along with t-shirt and climbed on top of him. This was the routine I had to use pretty much everyday since my mother left when I was six. She took my little sister with her. She said something about it being 'too late to save me.' She left because of my dad and what he does. I don't blame her.

He started to unbutton my pants. Of course I never enjoyed these moments with my dad. I sort of zone out to my 'happy place'. He's the reason why I am the fuck up that I am. Maybe I'm just blaming him because of how fucked up I am. I mean who let's their father rape them everyday? Me. Stupid, stupid me. 

A tear cascades down my cheek as my dad touches over me. This is when I start to slip away to my 'happy place'.

When my dad finishes with me, he locked me in the closet. This is no surprise for me. He always does this after he gets his way with me before school. It doesn't matter if I have eaten or not. He just tosses me in the closet like the worthless piece of trash I am. 

The next morning, Paul unlocks the door grabbing me by my hair. Great I missed another day of school because of him.

"Hey fag! Get the fuck out of the closet and get ready for school! Don't forget to bring your ass back by six because Jan and Jack or having their way with you tonight! So, you better treat them nice and earn some good money or else you'll be punished!"

Jan and Jack are two my dad's regulars. As in regular customers. My dad has made me become a prostitute to make money, so we can keep our garbage apartment in this garbage neighbourhood. It's been about four years since I've been doing this job. 

I whimpered as my dad tightened his grip on my hair while he dragged me up the stairs. He let go of me when we got to my room. He disappeared down the hall leaving me to curl up in a little ball. I cried for a few minutes before getting up to take a shower. I locked the bathroom door and turned on the shower. I turned around to look at myself I'm the mirror. I have bags under my eyes. It looks as though I haven't slept for days. I have cuts all over my arms, chest, and thighs. I'm so fucking hideous.

I'm already naked, so I just stepped in the shower. The hot water felt so good on my skin. My cuts have turned into scabs and scars, so the water feels even better. When I finished taking my shower, I unlocked the bathroom door and walked into my bedroom. I grabbed a pair of boxers and a white t-shirt. I looked around for a hoodie and some jeans. I soon found the clothing and put them on. I walked back in the bathroom and brushed my teeth while putting on deodorant. 

I grabbed my bad and vans on my way out of the house and slid everything on as I started my long and boring walk to school. 

When I got to school, I hurried to my first hour class which was science. We were learning about crayfish and stuff, so we had to get out these huge buckets and fill them with water. I saw Caleb and Chance messing around at their lab stations laughing. I kind of miss laughing and smiling. I rarely do that anymore. There just isn't anything to smile about. I think I'm afraid to talk to anyone because if I do, I'll just spill everything and end up in some metal ward because of the crazy fucked up things I've seen and done. 

"Hey Jayden! Where were you yesterday?", Chance asked. I just shrugged and sat down in my seat. They both shrugged and I watched them mess around until class began. Caleb's seat was next to mine and Chance sat in front of Caleb. 

I really don't mind Caleb, but since he got here, he's been taking all of Chance's attention from me. Chance was the closet friend I had ever had and now were kind of slowly separating and I hate it. I really do. 

While I was sitting and thinking about how I was losing Chance, I felt water being dumped on my head. 

"What the fuck was that for?", Chance yelled at Greyson, the school bully/football captain.

"What the hell? Jayden are you okay?", Caleb asked. I just looked at him with tears brimming my eyes and ran out of the class room. I could hear Greyson and Chance yelling at each other while the teacher epically failed at getting them to stop. As I slowed down my pace, I could hear footsteps approaching me. It was Caleb.

"Why do you just let those guys do that to you?!" Caleb asked referring to Greyson and his meathead jock friends. "You should really learn to stand up for yourself because that shit is not okay. Are you even listening to me?" He yelled. 

I just dropped to the floor and hugged my knees to my chest while I cried. I hate everyone. I hate my dad for ruining my life. I hate Greyson and his friends for humiliating me at school everyday. I hate myself for being such a worthless fuck. I hate Caleb for yelling at me and stealing away my best friend. I heard Caleb sigh. I looked up to see him bend down and wrap his arms around me. My eyes widened and I got up so fast and ran out of the school doors. I ran and ran until I got to an old park my mother used to take my sister and I to. 

I didn't like people touching me. I absolutely hated it. Now, I do mind Caleb. Yeah, he probably didn't know, but still! I absolutely hated being touched by anyone. 

After I composed myself, I decided I wasn't going back to school. The water that was dumped on me is starting to make me shiver as the harsh November wind danced around me. 

I handn't realized it until i was being awoken by screaming of sirens but i had fallen asleep on the bench at the play ground.  i watched as the ambulence speed by. i dont know where it was heading but it wasent unusual for them to be around.

After a few hours i decided i was going to just spend the night at the playground and have to deal with what my father would do to me tomrrow and how much trouble i would be in for skipping school but i was really hurt and i never really want to go back home...

☻☻☻☻Authors note☻☻☻☻

Hey y'all im sorry for the long wait and this chapter is not a chapter written completely by me partial credit goes towards My friend Carson She's A Lovely Writer and let me know what you think of her work.. 

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