Sweeties and Cigarettes

Chapter 4

Just in time rain poured down my face I was soaked, but I didn't care about that the only thing that was on my mind is "Which one?".

"What are you doing Camilia?" Aaron says yelling from my porch as he approaches me.

I hug him as tight as I could he could tell that something was wrong. And to be honest he seemed a little worried.

"Be honest with me, what is your relationship with him?" He says looking down at me.

Oh well he undressed me and I took him out to dinner how has your day been?

"He is just my teacher nothing more nothing less."

"Okay just making sure because teacher student relationships are disgusting." He says laughing.

"Y-yeah totally." I say hesitating.

He walks me back inside me house but I couldn't think straight. I can't do this again I told myself that I'm not gonna do that again yet I found myself doing it again. It's the reason why I started distancing myself from other people. After Aaron b went home I texted Recce for what I hoped was the last time..

"Meet me at the park at 2452 Dover St in 10." -Camilia.

I wait patiently for his reply.

"As long as you dont bring your boyfriend along."

I can feel the jealousy in his message.A few minutes later I put on my jacket and walk to the park, it was pretty dark but I didn't really mind.

"What do you need?" He says before he puts his cigarette between his teeth.

"Stop smoking it's bad for your health you could die you know." I say trying to grab the cigarette.

As he stands up he looks at me,"Is it any of your business?".

"Of course it's my business that's how my d- nevermind but it's still my business because I still care about you." I say looking at the ground.

I look up at him and when he puts his cigarette back in his mouth I could smell the alcohol that he had been drinking.

"You already got you someone why care for me?" He says as he sits on the swings like a child.

"Have you been drinking?" I ask him to clarify but you know what all drunk People say,"Of course not." He responds dropping the cigarette to the ground.

"Why? Why does it have to be him?" He says sobbing.

Everything I tell him now he won't remember so it doesn't matter what I tell him. "It's a problem I had in the past I'm not gonna make that same mistake I did 3 years ago." I say staring at him.

He gets up at hugs me,"I will always be here for you Camilia..".

I didn't hug him back I just stood still not doing anything nor saying anything. I knew that he wasn't drunk anymore he was just sober. At that moment I felt safe, it felt like nothing before. Because I felt so safe and comfortable I had to tell him,"That's why I can't see you anymore Recce I don't want what happened last time I can only see you as a teacher.."

Those words hurt but I knew they had to be said. If you get too comfortable then it's not right. I knew this hurt him more than it hurt me. I could tell he was devastated. I walked away and deleted him as my contacts. As soon as I started walking home I felt a hand grab my arm and hug me.

"I'll let you go if you tell me." Recce says holding me tight.

"I can't tell you all I can say is I can't relive that same pain." I say looking at the ground.

The next thing I knew Recce slammed his lips into mine I hesitated at first but I kissed him back. We were just two people in the middle of the park kissing, so I let him go. He refuses and says,"One more hug before you go." I hug him back forcing my tears not to roll down my face even though I already knew he was crying on my shoulder.

"I'm sorry.." I say as I walk away releasing the tears from my eyes. But then I start thinking why have I felt those lips before?

Recce's P.O.V

I sit back on the swing putting another cig in my mouth. I felt those lips before but I don't remember... I look up to see stars and then It went completely black. I stood up slowly walking around the darkness. I heard some people laughing so I followed their voices. As I approach them I can only see their backs but it looks like a happy couple. The man got up and turned around what I saw was horrible. "Is that me and Is  that Jazmin?" I look at her eyes and they look like Camilia's am I going crazy? "Thomas what are you doing hurry up." Jazmin says waving at Thomas.

Then it hit me, am I the one who broke up with Camilia, but no her name is Jazmin, but why am I just remembering this now? I wake up in my actual body not knowing what to do.

That was not her right? I go home and think about what happened but nothing is progressing in my head. I call Camilia to ask what that teacher's name was but then I remembered she is my student I shouldn't call her at this time. Fuck it. I call her to ask a few questions about "School work" "Sorry for calling but I wanted to know would Mr. Thomas be a good name for a math sentence?" I said not knowing what to say.

"Don't ever use Thomas in anything that is a devils name." She hugs up as soon as she said that. I am fucked if she finds out the truth.

(A/N: I had a way better chapter of this but it got deleted I am sorry I wish I had WiFi to save it but no my phone hates me. But anyway hope you enjoy... :p