Real Sweet Love (Boys Love)

4. My past

We were still on the beach, althought it became increasingly dark and later. We talked so much at all and suddenly he asked about something personallity. It was about my parenths and i started to cry. Officially i didn't want to talk about it, because it was to hard for me to talk about this all. "Are you okay Christian?" He asked me and seems to be really worried. I looked down and shake my head a little. "Do you wanna talk about it?" "No i can't. I'm sorry." I looked at him with tears in my eyes and felt his warm hug. "When u ready you can tell me. I will wait." He hugged me tight and i hugged him back even i was still crying. I felt really silly and stood up. "Maybe it's better if i go home." I looked at him and saw his gloomy look and looked away. "I'm really sorry." "It's fine. You can go, i'm fine." I walked away slowly and look once behind me. He was still sitting there and i felt really bad, but still i kept walking back to the hotel.

The next morning when i arrived at work for a meeting, but Jayden wasn't here. It was kind of weird and maybe it was because he was drunk of still sleeping. I looked on my phone and saw three messages of him. It looked like a goodbye and i stood up and ran to the beach. "Jayden. Where are you?" I kept searshing him and found him into a old restaurant. He looked so tired and sad too. I ran to him as fast i could and hugged him tight and saw he looked up. "Why you are here?" He asked without interessed and looked away. "Let's go." I grabbed his hand and took him to the beach.

I looked at Jayden and bite my lip. "I'm sorry for leaving yesterday. I just felt like i wanted to die too. I miss my parenths a lot. I lost them when i was young. My mother had Cancer and died when i was 12 years old. My dad tried to kill himself when i was 7 so i lost them when i was still young." I swallowed once and bite my lip. "I couldn't talk about it, because it"s still hard for me. I hadto grow up as fast and moved to Korea and lived into a small slop with many cardboard boxes around me and it smelled so bad. After a while i met a boy and i could grow up with him and his family. They treated me as their son too, but i always felt unhappy. I knew i never should see my parenths anymore and i knew i never could get a hug or kiss of them." I cried in silence and felt the hug of Jayden. "I'm so sorry for this all." He looked understandable to me and patted my back and cried too.

Later he started to talk too. "When i 17 i lost my dad, because he got the disease of glue and this was all by a tick. This disease lasted for two years, but we saw he got more and more bad. My mom is still alive, but got depressed and still she is. So when i got 16 my parenths wanted me to take this company and grow up fast too." I looked at him and hugged him. "I'm sorry for this. I'll be here for you." I said and looked down. "I miss my best friend. He was always here for me and always tried to made me happy. I never had a nice or awesome childhood. It was always without ky own parenth and also without any family member. I also don't know any of them and they never cared of me. It hurts, but im happy my best friend and his parenths were always so warm for me like his family members." I smiled a bit even i cried.

I looked the water and layd my head on Jayden his shoulder. "When i feel sad i was always going to the beach to calm down and loose my mind. It made me happy and calm. Also music helped me a lot and i write a lot too. I'm sorry i didn't tell you this all." Jayden was kinda speeceless and looked at the water too. "It's fine. I understand why you didn't say anything. I also love to go to the beach and listen music when i'm sad, but i'm i could talk to you. It feels you really understand me." He said and looked at me close and i bite my lip. "I feel the same yes. Thank you." We bother smiled a bit and enjoyed the sea and the sun.

After a while we went back to the company and had the meeting moved to tomorrow, because it was already to late to do the meeting now. So we dicided to finish our work for today and eat somewhere. For me felt this like a new family, because they all were so kind and warm against me. I felt like i had not to worry anymore about something, because everything happend here i saw they all were worried or carefully and it was so great. Even my past was so bad it got a nee start and had to look infront myself and not into the past. Maybe i should end this and open a new part of my life and having fun. "Good you have found Jayden." Some people said and smiled while i tried to stay calm, because i had still on my mind and was still a bit emotional. I nodded and smiled a little than i look away and counting till ten and breath slowly in and out and get calm.

After this all we waited for each other into the lobie till everyone was ready. I finished as last on and went into the elevator where Jayden pulled me into the elevator. I shocked and looked at him and suddenly he locked the elevator and kissed me. After he kissed me he smiled and go downstairs too. When we all get in the lobie too we went to the restaurant and got a really really great and awesome evening. I was sitting next Jayden as always and talked a lot with him, but everyone saw it. The most people though i was in relationship with him and founded it really cute. "Hey hey are you guys in relationship?" Someone wispered to me, but Jayden heard it. "No we are really close and good friends. Is it bad?" He said pretty hard and i looked away as fast and the others shakes their head. After all it was a really great eve and i have know Jayden more and more. We became as really good friends and understood each other as nobody else did and that made me just so happy at all.