17 and abused

What the hell am I thinking!

I wake up at ten I know it's late but it's two only time I have to rest. I don't get breakfast when joey is around. Joey is my mums boyfriend. He's like mum but worse and he smells oh the smell if rotten pigs flesh mixed with a nice slice of b.o. My mum talks about him all the time joey that his and joey that no this or Lola that. One day she forgot my name it hurt to be forgotten by your own mother even though I care little of what she thinks. I think she was put on this earth to make everyone miserable or something cause thats all she does. My friends don't even want to come to my house anymore. Not saying they ever really did. That brings me to the subject of school. Our school is one of those schools that you feel sorry for when you drive past. The one building is graffiti covered. The school bulliten board which is located at the front of the school has been egged so many times it has eggshell forever stuck to it. The gardens are filled with litter and cigarette Butts with no one to clean it up. The grounds keeper quit because apparently he was getting over worked. In an effort to make him stay mrs Louise tried and a litter day where each person had to pick up 50 prices of rubbish which in total wouldn't be much seeing as out school has a woping population of 60. Anyway we all bunked off school when we found out that we had to pick up rubbish. Lachy told them that we are not slaves and that she should go shove that idea far up her ass. He is such a bloody idiot.

Now what was I saying oh yeah so I wake up at ten and have no breakfast. Joey says I don't deserve breakfast. I Walk into the lounge room and find Maddie screaming in her cot like usual. Oh yeah did I forget to mention mum had another baby bout two years ago her name is Maddie not joeys kid and what a surprise I practically raised her. So I pick her up take her to the kitchen and ask her if she has had any brekki. She answers no, of course not why was I getting my hopes up? I pour a bowl of fruit rings and pour some milk in a bowl. While she is eating I go get changed. Mum doesn't work so I have too. While I am at it I grab maddies backpack and shove in a colouring book and some crayons to keep her entertained. She has to come with me. I don't trust mum or joey with her and surprisingly I never will. I wipe a tear from my face. I kinda just got used to this day to day routine but now that I think about I am disappointed disappointed that this is my life me at the age of 17 working at the local deli an abusive mum, am even worst boyfriend and a child to practically raise. What the hell am I thinking!!!