Therapy

"Ugh!" I smashed my hands in my MacBook.

I just wanna die right now.

"Cass. You need to do that! You need to finish your studies." My annoying Brother said.

I closed my eyes and held my head and gripped it. "I cant even imagine, me, going to a real school, I cant even survive home school."

"Your teacher is a laptop. Now what can be better than that." My brother groaned.

"I wish Mom was here." I said.

My brother sighed. "Is that seriously what your gonna say right now?"

I glared at him and didnt reply.

"Man! I wish Dad was here! Why do Dad have to leave me... With you?!" He said standing up and walking out my room, slamming the door hard.

I rolled my eyes and opened my macbook again. Ugh. The sight of this weboage makes me sick. I closed the Tab and went to Youtube. I dont know what Im gonna do. Might as well go to youtube and watch random videos.

I searched for 'Musics 2014 playlist' and waited for it to load. While it was loading my brother shouted something which made my nerves go crazy again.

"Dont forget about your therapy, afterwards! Get ready!"

Why cant they just fucking undertsand what im going through?

Ofcoarse im quiet like this and dont talk to much to them, and to other people. I know I dont have any friends. But what are friends are for? If some of them are just gonna leave you anyways. I always dont talk to my Dad and brother. If I need to talk to them. I typed something in my Phone and make my phone speak to them. Not my Mouth.

There are reasons why im like this.

My Mom died. And she was like the only one who understands me in this whole family. And ofcoarse my Best Friend died. I never got hyper then. Plus, my Dad made us move here at the philippines for 6 months. I was born in Miami, but im a filipino, half filipino to be exact.

My dad never trust me going to a school so he let me go to an Internet/home school or something like that. And I still dont like it. I prefer laying on my bed and question myself why im still alive.

"Hey! Get ready! Were almost leaving!"

Ohmygod! Just shut up! Why do I have an annoying brother? Can I just have a Sister? Or better No siblings.

I got up and lazily go to my closet. I brought out sweatpants, because I dont care about what I look like. And a White V-neck. I changed into that and went to get my Black Vans.

I guess Im ready. I went down and went straight outside. Completely Ignoring my Brother who's shouting at me. It feels weird to go outside. And why is Manila so crowded? This place is gonna get my anxiety boosting up any minute if I didnt get to my Brothers car.

I tapped my feet nervously and nervously bit my lip. I looked up and see people walking by. A group of people. My heart started to pound so fast. I think I need my pills.

I got shocked when someone held my shoulders.

"Lets go" My brother said walking to his car. I followed by quickly and hopped in the car. I looked outside and just laid down. "You should see some friends." My brother said. Can he not see, Im not in the mood for friends right now? Or never?.

I typed something in my phone and just let the robotic voice speak.

"I dont need friends. Im better off this way."

My brother shook his head and just sighed. I rolled my eyes and just looked outside.

Minutes later. We arrived at the therapist office. I hopped out and waited for my brother. I typed somthing.

"Go on and tell that therapist to get ready. Ill wait here."

He didnt say anything but just got in the building. I laid at the Brothers car and waited for him.

Man. His taking too long. I checked the time amd groaned. 3:17. I searched the place for any near stores or something.

All I can see is Starbucks (Imagine theres a Starbucks outside MOA) I have no choice Im thirsty. Good thing I have money. I dont care if my brother dont find me. I have a phone anyways. I walk inside starbucks and went straight to the counter.

Ohman. I need to speak.

"GoodAfternoon Ma'am! What can I get you?" I bit my lip and inhaled.

"Uhh, one, Vanilla Bean" I said. I gave her the money and she handed me my drink. I need some time alone. So I'll just stay here. Theres many vacant seats so I just picked the seat at the last row.

I stayed there for awhile. Finsihing my drink. Few minutes had past and I finished my Drink. I stood up and sighed. Here we go again. My phones been vibrating. Maybe its just my brother.

I walked outside Starbucks but bumped into a person in my way out. How stupid. Okay. I admit it was me, my head was swaying down always so I dont see if theres a person infront of me.

"Ohmygod! Im so sorry!" The person said gripping my shoudlers.

"No, no. Its uhh, its okay" I said looking up.

Is this boy? I think hes not from here. He's face is different. Not a Filipino one. Why am I noticing that doe. Shut up Cass.

"Are you sure?" He asked again.

"Yeah, im sure. Its my body anyways" I said, not in a rude way, I hope.

"Ohyeah. Yeah. Im sorry again." He said. I gave him a small smile and walked away.

That boy was kind of... Kind of....

I cant believe im saying this but...

He's kind of Cute.