I get it

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I get it, I should probably stop trying. I'm wasting my time loving you because you could never feel the same. I have though about why I shouldn't tell you how I feel so many damn times that I have lost count. But the thing is if I haven't shaken off this feeling for this long, even through two relationships how the fuck do you expect me to do it now?

I don't even think you are considering a relationship with me. You replied to my confession within 1 minute of reading it. How can you consider all the possibilities and relationship positives in that time? It just feels like sometimes, even as my friend I'm the only one who ever gives the effort to care.

I'm so fucking stupid, I know, useless maybe. But I don't know how to stop myself from giving into my emotions, sometimes they are just too strong.

Okay so you probably know who you are, just know I'm pissed off, and resentful. But I don't want to lose our friendship, I just told you so that you would know how I feel. I guess it never works out for the best friend of someone like you.

I guess I will just have to be... I don't even know anymore.