Darkfic: You're harming yourself since a while.Your depressions are getting stronger, but you don't want to tell it your girlfriend Veronica.So one evening you were cuting yourself, but Veronica interrupts you....
*Trigger warning:Includes selfharm...Don't read if you don't like*
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I sat at my window.I was crying.Like so often, but nobody seems to care.I watched down at my arms.They were already covered in blood.My room was dark.I felt so alone.Tears ran down my cheek.My head screamed the name of my girlfriend.I want her to be here, to help me out of this mess.But of course she couldn't help me if she doesn't know.I've never told Ronnie that I was harming myself, that I hate my body, my character and I didn't know how I deserved her.She was just too perfect for me.
She was such a caring person.So lovely and cute.Her body was also perfect just like the rest of her.I wanted to look like her, but I knew I'll never be able to look that perfect like her.I sniffed, grabbing my blades again to feel the good-known pain replace the actual problems.The blade was just cutting in my skin as it knocked on my door.Shit.In Panic, I pulled down the sleeves of my sweater to hide my scars."Who is it?",I asked with my weak voice.
"Darling it's me.Can I come in?", a soft voice asked.I stiffened.I would recognize this voice under thousands.It's Veronicas.And then, without a warning,she busted in."Y/N.Why is it so dark inside here?",my girlfriend asked while turning on the light.It was dark outside and I wondered why she came here so late.The light was bright and I had to blink.The raven haired girl looked at me, her eyes were filled with worry."I've called you like a thousand time, but you didn't answer your calls."Of course I didn't .I've turned my phone off while having my depressive phase.
"Oh...I'm sorry Ronnie.My phone is turned off."-"I've recognized.Wait....Oh my god...y/n...Have you cried?Is something wrong baby?",she asked me,her voice was now also filled with worry, while she walked over to my place.She hugged me tightly.I didn't know what to say, so I simply whispered with my rough voice:"It okay Ronnie.I've just had a breakdown.It's nothing worse"God.I was a terrible girlfriend but also a terrible liar.Veronica looked at me,raising her right eyebrow."Mm...You aren't a good liar...So what happened y/n?"
I kept quiet.I didn't want to tell her the truth."It's okay y/n.You don't....Oh my goddess y/n...Is that?Are you...are you bleeding y/n?!?!?!" She pointed at my sleeves that started to cover in dark red.Shit.Now there was no way hiding it any longer, but I tried.
"Oh no.No....that's the normal colour of the hoodie.",I lied desperate."Don't you dare to lie to me about that",Ronnie growled angrily, as she stepped forward to grab my arms and pull my sleeves up again.I started to defeat myself ,but Veronica was way stronger than me.Now she could see the disaster I've made.
"Oh my God y/n",she whimpered when she saw all my scars."What have you done?"I looked down at the floor."Why didn't you tell me?"I shook my head."Look at me y/n!",my girlfriend pleaded.She cupped my face in her hands and made me look at her.I suddenly felt so ashamed.Nobody has ever seen me this weak.I hated it to show how weak I am.A tear ran down my cheek."Y/n....Please tell me Why you're doing this.Let me help you Baby.Please.You know you can trust me..."Tears filled up my eyes.Why was she so nice?I don't deserve her."Ronnie.",I whimpered and I couldn't help,but throwing myself into her welcoming arms."I hate myself so much.I don't deserve you.You're such a good,beautiful and perfect person Ronnie.I love you so much it hurts, but I actually think you would be happier with someone else.I'm not a good person.I'm worse.I can't give you everything you need.I mean look at me....I'm fat and I really dislike my face.It's so ugly.And you're just..."-"Shhhhh Baby....Don't....You know nothing what you said is actually true.You are damn pretty.And fat is a word I want never to come out of your mouth again.You're such a nice and caring person and I never want to be without you again.You're such an important person in my life y/n.I don't wanna lose you.",Veronica cut in my speech.My eyes widened to that what she said.Tears running constantly down my cheeks.She gently kissed my tears away and whispered:"Let me take care of you y/n"I nodded, not knowing what else to do.She softly smiled at me.
"I love you y/n"-"I love you too Ronnie."
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New, dark chapter with 810 words.I actually wish I had a gf like Ronnie.Just so caring and gentle.Oh Boyyyy I love Veronica so freaking much.I can't help.So show me if you enjoyed this chapter.Btw thank you for all the reads and votes.It means a lot to me.
Have a nice day loves
xo Angel
