To You, Johnny. #ToAllTheBoysContest

To You, Johnny

To Johnny,

I crush a lot, let it be known to the world. We knew each other through people and classes. I was attracted to your smartness and your smile was one of a kind.

Your face was adorable like any other person would say. I admired you from afar just daydreamin why you couldn't see me the way I see you. To me, you were just someone that I couldn't reach nor touch without a bomb exploding near by.

During recess days, I would walk with my friends while eye searching for you. You see, I was just a school girl thinking you would like me back but that doesn't always happen. You were with your boys, just chilling about near the soccer field. I could remember I was screaming internally inside my mind just wanting you to glance or notice me.

Boy crazy was what you could describe me as back in school days. You were unfortunately one of them that I had a major crush on. You probably think I'm as crazy as before but I'm less boy crazy and more reserved.

I did like you and your adorableness was a bonus. I remember telling my friends that I liked you and from that, they decided they wanted to play matchmaker. I wasn't fond of that since I knew you didn't have your eyes on me.

They insisted that I ask you out and I thought about it but god the fear of rejection and the fact that I wasn't the one you were chasing. It honestly sucks to be at the end of the spectrum where you know your crush likes someone else other than you.

For you I wasn't crushing all the way but something about you just reeled me in. I had you in one class, one I can't remember but it was a rush just knowing you were in there sitting miles and miles away from me. One thing, I knew I didn't have a chance but that stop me from crushing on you.

I was in like a love sick teenage phrase. You just happened to be in the middle of it.

One day especially comes to mind, was the day I decided to ask you out. I was scared, quite nervous actually. My palm were sweating like crazy and my heart wouldn't control itself. It was in the middle of four corners. Your friends pushed you towards me when I had to talk to you.

Your face was priceless. I mean you looked like you didn't want to be there but I'm glad you didn't embarrass me to everyone. I couldn't even utter the words to you and when I finally said those 3 words, My face was so red and I felt like crying.

I knew you wanted to escape but at least you gave me an answer before you walked away slowly. In the moment when you said no, my heart shattered even though I knew the answer already.