I feel like I'm drowning.
I'm kicking and screaming!
But no one seems to hear me.
If they do, they simply don't care.
While I am here drowning in despair.
Who am I?
I don't know.
I feel like I lost who I was a long time ago.
I love my kids!
I really really do.
But every mom needs a break or two.
I fear that I'll appear selfish for saying so.
But I'm actually more selfless than anyone will know.
At eight is when I grew up and had to mature.
That set the tone for my future.
Taking care of my grandma just as a child.
Then I took care of my sisters.
I never had the chance to be like other teens and run a little wild.
Now I'm a mother and sometimes it's great.
Other times I'll admit... it's too much on my plate.
Diapers, bottles, playtime, bye bye and nighttime.
Is it too much to ask for a moment to myself sometime?
Hearing "Mommy" 24/7 loses its ring.
And I always feel like I'm drowning.
I try and I try cause I feel like I'm gonna fail.
I internally scream, to no avail.
My sanity always feels like it's at its limit.
But I try to paint on a smile, put on my big girl pants and push through it.
As tears fall daily because it gets overwhelming.
Will someone, anyone out there, please save me from drowning?!
