How about forever?

When I reallized

Emili's POV

I cant believe that a year passed since the last time I saw Alison, she was my first and only love, I always remember when we were at the library, she was in a corner reading a book, I just looked at her, Oh God her smile, she was laughing.

"Hi, what are you laughing about ?"

"Their names"

"Ali....I had a dream about Jenna"

"No please Emily, stop, there are lots of surgeries she could have"

"No, I dreamed that she could see perfectly and she forgave us."

"Thats why I love you, you're big on happy endings... Charles Dickens by the way... Can I read you something?"

"Of course"

"I loved her against reason, against promise, against peace, against hope, against happiness, against all discouragement that could be."

I just looked those blue eyes I love, then I got closer and I kissed her, it was a quick kiss but it made me feel happy.

Yeah, I have great memories about Ali but then I realized that it was just a kiss for her, "those kisses were just practice for the real thing", thats what she said when I kissed her at the locker room.

Damn I really hate her for playing with feelings like that, but at the same time I love her, well I don't really know if that is possible loving someone with all you heart but also hate her so deep.

Well as you can see my feelings were so mixed up, and well I can't do nothing, Ali has been gone for 1 year, I really miss her but now I have to move on.

"Emily you're going late for school, hurry up if you don't want to walk !"

I comb my hair, and then brush my teeth, later I get out of the room.

I am ready to go to school, now approaching to the porch so I can go out, Aria is already waiting for me.

"Hi" I say

"Hi, are you ok?"

"Do you want a sincere answer or a lie ?"

"Mmm... You are thinking about Alison aren't you ?"

"Hey... how do you know ?"

"I know because every time you think about her you have that lost puppy look"

All the classes were really boring until someone pulled me back without even noticing, it was a little blonde girl, she hand me a note.

"I hope that little girl makes you think of me, met me at our spot"

Wow really? Can it be ? Alison?

I skip all the classes and go directly hope to change for a dress, put some perfume, I leave my house going to the kissing rock.

And there she was, a girl siting on the rock, she was wearing a red coat, I barely pronounce her name.

"Alison"

She turn...yep there she is the girl that makes me mix my feelings,that one person that I could hate and love at the same time.

"Alison, what are you doing here?"

"Emily I cant keep hiding, Im gonna come home."

"Really or you're just messing with me?"

"No really, Emily I lov...."

Alison POV

FUUUCK! ALISON CONTROL YOURSELF.

Now its not the time.

I lov...(think something good Alison I think to myself) I mean I'll love to spend some time with the girls.

"Yeah ok."

Emily take her phone and send them a message, "Ali is here, she wants to talk to all of us."

"Thanks Ba.. (Fuck not again) Emily."

"You're welcome I guess ?"

"Tell them to met us at 4 in the coffee shop"

"But Ali it is 2 o'clock what me are going to do?"

"Well I really think we should talk"

"So now you want to talk?"

"Emily please don't be mad at me"

"Oh now I can't be mad at you?"

"Emily please!"

" I'll better tell the girls that we are going to met them at 2:30"

"No, seriously we need to talk...alone, there are some things that I can only tell you."

"Why, now you don't trust the girls ?"

"No, is not that, Emily, you're special, I don't know, I only feel safe with you."

" I don't believe you"

"I'm being sincere"

"Ok, whatever"

Damn I feel my heart cracking, really I love her and being rejected like this.... I want to cry right now. Its like loosing the person I love the most in just a matter of words, I cant believe she changed but I really want to earn her trust again no matter what I have to do because it was my fault since the beginning.