It's 3 am. Lights are off. I'm sitting on the bathroom floor. This is where i lie down when i'm broken inside. I swear my eyes are dry, cause' it's been a long time. I'm listening to my favorite song. That reminds me of you of course and i remember all those things you said.
I wish you could know. I now have the guts but you have moved on. I don't know why, but just like that, everything we had is gone. We don't talk anymore but you're still here. You're everywhere. I'm in despair.
How i wish i could go back in time to the day we met. If only i knew. If only you could come with a warning. If only my mouth could find the words.
It's getting late.
Can't find the answers that i want. You have them. What if i had too many high hopes? Would that explain the too many disappointments?
Do i wanna know?
I tried to find my reflection on the glass. All i saw was the things i lacked.
How i wish i was good enough.
It sucks to see you everyday and pretend that everything's okay. I cherish your hugs. You don't know it
but it's true.
I often dream about you. It feels so real. I create this idea that you want me and that you are mine. But you do not want me and you are not mine. Fun fact. Reality sucks.
I think i'm doomed.
