The story of my life. Literally.

the S word

i remember defending you're name when I didn't even know who you were. i knew of you, you seemed mysterious, i wanted to get to know you. you never made the first move so i replied to you're story. you claimed to be the best listener. im a Gemini who loves to talk. i argued that you wouldn't listen to me. you somehow convinced me to open up to you. i think I was too naïve from all the cuts. they were already open, i needed someone to actually see them. see how much the guy before you had fucked me up. we were brought up the same way. we lived in the same places. you had a way with you're words. you've always loved English class. you made me believe everything you said. you got me to love myself. and at the darkest time of my life. everyone had left me. you somehow gave me the confidence to keep going. i don't know you did it but you covered up my cuts. you made me think of a better future. you made me believe you loved me. i know you loved me. i love you too. whenever you were sick i took care of you. whenever people hurt you I was there with you. for a whole year we were each other's number one. you wanted us to last. i wanted that too baby. but you made me think that I needed to thank you by showing you my body. at first I'd show you a little to tease you. you'd always ask and ask for more but less clothes. yes baby I know you were going through a hard time. you needed me. you'd always beg to see me naked. you'd say you had a hard day and you needed me to cheer you up. this upset me. my love and words didn't seem to matter to you anymore. you thought if I didn't show you my body it meant, I didn't love you. baby you had it all wrong. i wanted to see if you loved me if I didn't show you my body. i gave you time away from me. you'd only text me when you're dick was hard and you needed me to help you release the stress. we didn't talk as much. we mainly argued. we needed to speak to each other in person. we needed to talk about it but we both ignored each other. you said you needed me in you're life forever but shit i didn't know forever expired when I stopped sending you pictures of me naked. yes you were the greatest man I've ever met. you still mean the world to me. i hope the new girl makes you happy and treated you as well as I did. i hope you're staying off the streets and taking care of you're family.