I often sit and wonder if anyone is looking for me, if anyone even cares. I always come to the same conclusion. They don't. Well - It's even that or they've forgotten me. Which is probably most likely.
I try to remember before It all happens, but my memory is flimsy, I've been away for too long.
The past hurts,
and,
i can't remember who I used to be.
My eyes watering, I lie down, and begin to fall asleep.
***
I wake up to the simple sound of seagulls shrieking and the salty waves sailing across the sea, our boat rocking in time to the splashes. I can tell a storm is coming. Some other people could be worried, but not me. I trust dad completely to sail our boat safely to our new home. (He won't tell me where it is because it's a surprise, but I know it's going to be wonderful!) I can't wait!
I throw on some mismatched clothes and shoes. Giddy with excitement, I sprint up the stairs two at a time and burst through the doors to the main deck. But Dad isn't anywhere to be seen. I look for him, everywhere. In his room. Behind the barrels. The control room. I even stood outside the mens toilets to see if I could hear anything. But he is no where I look. Not sure what to do next, I peer down the side of the boat. All I can see is the waves powerfully splashing against our hull. The storm is here. I do hope Dad hasn't fallen in. Suddenly hands grasp my shoulders, so hard they seem to pierce my skin. I turn around and stop in my tracks.
It's him.
He lets out a cry and pushes me away.
Over the edge.
Away from the boat.
Away from him.
I am falling.
down, down, down
further and further away from life as I know it.
and then there is a huge splash,
and i hit a wall of water.
my legs sting.
My head hurts.
I thrash, trying to stay above, but it doesn't work.
The waves of the storm are ferocious.
And I am not a strong swimmer.
I look up and see Dad smirking at me.
I hear a boom of thunder.
And lightning crosses the sky.
And strikes our boat.
I hear flames as I go under.
The current takes me away,
away from everything, and I wake up on a jungle island.
My new home.
***
I wake up with tears in my eyes.
He forgot me - even worse - he did it on purpose.
I can't get the words out of my head,
My new home
