aiden,
i don't know what to say here
should i remind you of us? our sleepless nights and our uncontrollable laughing over the phone?
you're so far now so i'll never be able to hold you again
but that's okay, why would you wanna hold me anyways?
i fell in love with your crimson lips and your almond eyes
the way your hands felt in mine , shaking , trembling
the way your hair layed to one side of your face or your voice
i know it's been two years but i just can't forget us
i remember you used to play your kazoo over the phone or you'd hum me to sleep
i can't sleep without hearing your voice
i haven't slept well since the night i left
i mean, hey, atleast we tried to fix it
it didn't work , as you can see
every day i open up my message app and for some reason, god knows why, i've got your messages pinned to the top
maybe it's because i'm hoping you'll text someday
probably not
i told you i loved you and you asked why
i went on and on about your smile and your laugh and your voice and your humming and the way you danced
i've written about you so many times
why am i stumbling over words for this then?
i'm just trying to tell you i love you still
and every day i wonder
how do i say " i miss you " in a way that will make your heart ache as much as mine does?
my heart is ripping and tearing and i wish you could see
i wish you could see i would do better this time
if you would just let me back in
i'm sorry i hurt you , that's probably why you hate me
do you remember the day i sang to you? it was " you are my sunshine "
that's my background by the way-
i just wanna remember it all and even if i got rid of any trace of you , you'd still be stuck inside my head
i've tried going back
i've tried telling you i miss the way your arms felt like home and that i miss calling you and staying up until 4 am
but none of it means anything to you
you were enough for me, you still are
but i was fifteen and dumb and i let you go for someone i knew wouldn't have stayed
i knew you would
i should have stayed too
i'm sorry i didn't
i'm sorry i let you down
but i want you to know that i still love you
and i'll never stop
- the girl you forgot about
