Things that consume my mind

Anniversary

Will today affect you the way it'll affect me? Do you know why it would or is today just okay the meaning and value lost on you. Will you sit here and remember how this day was once so important and meant everything good in the world but now it's gone. When will you find out what I have? Is today a happy day or a day to grieve and take time. But then I remember you gave up on us and I can't change a thing. The pain and hurt and doubt that courses through my veins won't leave just because I want it to. Maybe if I open them it'll release it but there's no guarantee. So today will be difficult, so will the 24th if I still had my friends it would be a perfect time to talk to them, but I don't like talking anymore. In a world of people living and making stuff with their valuable time I'm just existing and nothing more. Floating away into the bottom of a bottle hoping maybe just maybe something will make me forget. Because I'm fine as long as I forget.