Love Found(mxmxm+)

Chapter 11

Mason

As I listened to Holden explaining everything to Jace I couldn't help but think back to the time I fell for my brother

It happened around the time he turned sixteen at first it was nothing but a brother loving his baby brother but after his sixteenth birthday I started to notice the differences in his appearance the way he carried himself. I started to notice the way he crinkles his nose when his was stressed, the way he would bite his lip when he concentraded hard on something or the way he would run his hands through his hair when he was nervous I found it all cute  sometimes I caught myself looking at his lips when he went of on his rants not listening to a word he said my thoughts began getting more advantgerous starting with me kissing those rosy red lips than were always taunting me to getting down and dirty with him

At first I felt disgusted with thinking that way about my brother I was going crazy thinking about it I had to let it out someway I went to only one I  trusted with everything Holden

I told him about everything every last detail after telling him he left without saying a word I thought he hated me cause how can a brother love his own flesh and blood then the negative thoughts sat in I was left alone the self loathing commensed my boyfriend was leaving me because I loved my brother more than I should if only he would've let me tell him that I didn't love him any less I still wanted to be with him

The very night Holden came back and found me in the same position that he left except now I was a snot nosed tear stained blumbering mess he took me in his arms comforted me telling me that everything was alright I pushed myself closer to him embracing  his heat I asked him not to leave me that I still loved him the way I always loved him he shushed me and told me he knew after a long night we fell asleep in each others arms

Waking up I felt Holden already up playing with my hair I laid on his chest I didn't  want to open my eyes in fear of knowing the conversion we were going to be having

"I know your awake Mace" Holden stated above me

I pressed my eyes tighter together feeling more vulnerable than last night

"Okay,  I'll play your game" he started he's hand moved slowly down my back and settled on my bum

"Aren't you wondering how I feel about everything baby" he asked I didn't make a move although I wanted to shake my head no
'I'll tell you,  if you did asked I would have told you I'm happy that you came to me with it and that you trusted me enough to talk about I also wanna say I'm sorry for leaving you last night it was just a bit of shock and I needed time to collect myself' I found myself nodding along to everything he was saying waiting for him to call me disgusting for loving two people and the other one of them my brother but he never did

He told me he loved me enough to share me  he admitted to founding my brother attractive and he would love to find out what made him tick like he did me I was never more releaved than that day he went the extra mile and told me to find out more about the type relationships so that we both can now what were getting into what type of relationship I wanted to get into l only wanted a relationship with them though but I did what he asked me to

In the beginning of the year Holden came to me and told me about the crush he had on Mr. Evans and told me it was probably just a passing feeling but i  told him that I also found the older man attractive and that he wasn't alone I didn't think it was a fleeing crush I think it was more than that considering that he gave me and Holden more than enough attention back but I'll leave that for another time

I came back to Jace on Holden's lap kissing full on I couldn't have been more happier seeing that sight but I  needed to find out what was happening seeing as I was the one stuck in lala land so I tapped Holden on his shoulder and he let out a groan but did pull back from Jace to look at me 

Jace dropped  his head on Holden's shoulder "Jace hun do you understand everything Holden has told you, how are you feeling about everything "I asked while running my hand up and down his back he nodded his head but I needed him to say it  I have waited so long to hear him say anything along those lines Holden always knowing what I wanted did it for me

"Babe I think  he wants to hear you" he said kissing him on his head making him blush either from the kiss or the petname

Jace turned his head not meeting my eyes "I understand I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed I mean I do feel something for you guys I'm not sure if its love yet" I nodded my head in understanding

"Would you look at me Jace "I asked while waiting for him to look at me

"I am looking at you " he mumbled

I laughed "no your not, your looking at my chest I want you look in my eyes " he looked up at that meeting my eyes

"Its okay Jace were not gonna force you we'll take things as slow as you want it, I'm just glad your not disgusted with me " at that he sat upright moving over getting on my lap from Holden's  and kissing me using it to my advantage I kissed him with all my built up passion my hands went to his hips making small circles under his shirt he let out a little moan after that he pushed a little on my chest I  pulled back give him a little bit of space

"Don't you ever say that shit again " he said while trying to glare at me but he just look like a angry cute kitten "do you hear me " he asked I smiled and gave him a peck

"Stop distracting me, you both are very distracting when your touching me or kissing me so stop" he stated pointing his finger and Holden and I Holden bit his finger puling it in and sucking it making him let out a moan his eyes fluttered close I started kissing his neck he's hands fisted my t-shirt as he let out another moan

This is definitely going better than I expected
Best day ever!