Not what you thought

My Dad

After weeks of what should be an illegal amount of homework, it's finally the day. Phana would finally know how much he matters to me. Ming may even get more of a chance with Kit if all goes well today. I go almost nowhere without Ming, so our friends will be forced to be at the very least friends to each other. Knowing Ming however, he wouldn't let any chance to be with Kit be in vain. Maybe then, he would stop beating himself up for loving another guy, he still won't truly accept what he feels. Kit and Beam have been hanging around us more often, and I can see Ming losing his control over his feelings for Kit every time Beam gets close to Kit. I know that the more Ming is around Kit, he will begin to accept himself again, it's the unfamiliarity that's off-putting to him. Call me crazy, but from the way Kit looks at Ming when he's not looking makes me think that the feelings are returned on Kit's side, Ming just needs a little push in his direction. I shake my head to try to dismiss the many thoughts of whatever may happen to Ming and Kit in the future. Right now, I need to focus on my immediate future, which is figuring out how to make Phana all mine and only mine.

Shaking my head, I throw off my many blankets ready to start the day. I yawn and stretch out my arms, thoughts of all of the amazing responses I could possibly get from Phana today, I refuse to think of any of the countless things that could go wrong! Thoughts of Phana smiling at me while the artificial yellow light shines on him, accentuating all of his beautiful face. I can't help grinning imagining just how amazing that would look, even though I know even my imagination can't do Phana justice. I look to my desk where my phone was lit up from a message I had just received. Ming messaged me to let me know that he'd be here in a half an hour to forty-five minutes, so I took out the clothes I want to wear and rush to the shower.

Forty minutes, and a hundred more faces of Phana rushing through my head, later, I hear Ming yelling from downstairs. "Wayo you ready to go?!? You had better be or else you won't have a way to get to school and see your precious Phana! "Thank goodness my dad had already left for the day, I haven't come out to him yet, and I wasn't sure if I should. My dad is one of the top five most influential people in the country, and I don't want to jeopardize his entire company. Although we are very wealthy, my dad doesn't care, he just cares for the company the money is just a perk to make it easier to care for my mom and me. Our country publicly claims that they're fine with gay people, but I know the truth, it makes you look weak in the eyes of other companies, not brave as it should. Because being gay is stigmatized as being weak, investors drop their shares in the company, if the public finds out as well there will be a small spike in growth because many people want to be special and flaunt their "tolerance". However, when that spike goes down, it doesn't just level off people stop coming because they get bored with your company, the people became happy to be able to say "look at how great of a person I am, I came to a company that has something to do with a same sex couple," have their expectations raised because they think that there's something truly different from other companies when there isn't. People get disappointed. And in the long run, your company fails. My father's company is his livelihood and (other than mom and I) his entire life, I know that he would throw away the whole company to make me happy and I know that we would have enough money to survive on for five or more lifetimes, but I don't want him to have to make that choice. In the future I'm sure that we'll have to cross that bridge, but we'll do it together, as a family I know we can find a solution, it's just not the time yet.

Ming is hopping around in the foyer when I finally go downstairs, I don't even think I can comment on how weird my best friend is at this point, but I love him all the same. I get closer to him and I can hear him slightly squealing from who knows what.

"Why are you so happy today?" Ming giggles.

"Today is the day~!" Oh, so that's what he's so happy about. I'm so glad that I have a best friend who's so happy for me when something good will definitely happen today. Most people would just find a way to make it all about their own joy, but not Ming, not my best friend Mi- "I'm going to get to talk to my Kit-Kat because you're going to be boyfriends with his friend," I look at him, betrayed. "You were going to introduce me to Kit-Kat, right? And make sure he isn't dating Beam~?" Ming looks at me with the biggest puppy eyes I've ever seen in my life. I can't believe I thought Ming was being mature for once, although to be honest, for the split second I thought he was, I was a bit uncomfortable with it. I like having my childish friend Ming by my side, he makes everything better. "C'mon Yo, smile, Pha will definitely accept you, he'd be so stupid not to." I grin almost automatically at Ming's words, probably because the name Phana appeared in his words.

"Oh, I never had any doubt of that" I say whilst doing a dramatic hair flip- that probably would have been more dramatic if I had more hair to flip, but whatever. Ming stands gawking, apparently taken aback by my confidence that he thought was gone but in actuality I probably had way too much of. "Number one: Close your mouth unless you want to catch some flies. Number two: We have to go unless you want us to be late forgot school, meaning you won't have time before class to drool over your Kit-Kat." Ming didn't even react when I mention number one, but the second he hears number two he rushes into action, grabbing my arm and yanking me rather forcefully through the front doors of my house and throws me into his car. The car door shuts and I can tell that for good or for bad, today will change the rest of my life.

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