Let me get one thing out, I hate myself so fucking much. Oh my god I hate myself, i ruined my favorite friendship, i hope she sees this and DM's me but i dout she will, i just i fucked up and now i don't have my favorite person in my life anymore. Iv'e been missing getting a text from her at night and then waking up to it cause i don't have my phone at night. And I've been needing her relationship advice cause shes so good at helping me with my issues and that's one thing out of so much that i miss, i miss me helping her and then her helping me. there's been so much shit that I've been needing to tell you and talk to her about and i cant take not having you in my life i just wait all day for a DM even though i know i'm not getting one. I think i might text her tomorrow or tonight but i just miss her so fucking much cause like what 4 or 5 years of being friends? I don't want to lose that so i'm just sorry for doing that and i'm sorry for posting this i just need you so fucking much. I love you.
