my wattpad diary

oH-

omg shit he hot thinking ab him makes me happy and gives me butterflies. i hate that in school he always be looking at me, but me being the shy annoying bitch i am, i look away and smile. shit. also no body at school.knows. not even my best friends. i call them 'best friends' but idk if i can trust them ya know. i mean they can trust me on my life. but rn im not too happy with them. my friend alejandra got mad at our whole friend group bc my other friend rutva and her were suppost to go to the library today for fun friday. (basically recess for middle schoolers, at my school. but you can do anything you want but you have to have at least 20 stamps, only on friday tho. it sounds confusing but its really not.) and me and everybody went outside, bc first of all who goes to the libray? and rutva skipped and went to the outside thing leaving alejandra alone with no one to talk to when i told her to tell alejandra to come outside. (timothy was outside sksk, ive never talked to him but his smile and the way he talks sounds like angels and music to my ears, his laugh is everything) SHIT I WAS SUPPOST TO TALK ABOUT TIMMY BOI-

here: timothy (tim) sksk ik ) porter
T: totally hot
I: i love you
M: mine (kms hes not 😔😩😍)
O: oH-
T: times ticking tim, ask me out
H: hfuck me
Y: you are absolutely amazing. i love you. i love everything ab you. ik i will never get the chance to tell you bc my shy ass cant commit shit to anyone. i love your laugh its like i died and came back to life. i love your smile, you make my heart soft. i love the way whwn i walk past or look at you, you swoop your hair. i love the way you talk to your friends then glance at me making me feel like im the one you smiled at. though you dont like me, and you may never like me, i will always have a special place for you in my heart. even when my hoe ass moves on to another guy. thats the thing ab liking some one, you can love them with all your heart. you can give them all of your love. you may think about them in your dreams and have them on your mind 24/7. but they might never think of you. they might never like your smile or cherish there laugh. or write their name on your arm with a Sharpie 1 million times. or even glance at you. but you love them, You love THEM.