Dear you,
I don't know exactly what to say or how to word it but there's, a lot of things about you that I've just come to love. Your smile is absolutely beautiful, your laugh is like music to my ears, one of the most beautiful sounds I've ever heard, I love how your long, beautiful, soft brown hair blows in the wind, and no matter what is happening you never let it bother you, you're an amazing.... friend. We're just friends, but that's something I've come to accept. You'll never feel the same way about me, and even if you did, I'm not sure if I would allow anything to happen between us because I'm afraid my trust issues will cause you to worry, I'm afraid that hot headed attitude will cause tears to fall down that gorgeous face of yours, the face of a girl I never want to see sad. I'm afraid that my past, the past that has caused me so much pain and grief will catch up again and ruin us completely. I'm afraid the ex that can't stand to see me happy without him, and the ex friend that would do anything to ruin the only good parts of my life, will come to you with false accusations of things i'd never do. Not to mention I don't think my parents would agree with their daughter having a girlfriend. I don't want to hurt you, I don't want that shining light that has kept me going for much longer than I wanted to to go out, because without my lighthouse I'm just a ship floating, lost in a never ending darkness. I find myself wanting to tell you everything, i want to tell you how I've had a crush on you for years and i didn't realize it until i figured out that that's the reason i could never get you out of my head, that's the reason i always looked for you to be online or at school, that's the reason you were my first thought in the morning, and my last thought at night, why i always blushed or got nervous with every single touch. I would always lay my head down in math class just because of that one time you laid yours right on top of mine. I've been wondering what it would be like to hold your hand at the movies, your head on my shoulder as we share a bucket of popcorn and some candy, or seeing your face light up at anime merch. I wanna be able to hold you in my arms as you lay on my chest, I wanna kiss your forehead and cheek and tell you how beautiful you are and amazing, but sadly I'll just have to keep on wishing and hoping that you feel the same. You're my best friend, always have been always will be, no matter what. You are the best thing to happen in my life.
With Love,
Me
