Age is just a number

Eight : The plan

-/-/-/-//-///-/ Lara 's Prove-/-/-/-//-/--/

We reach a nice little Mexican restaurant. We get a table for two. We take a selfie and I post it on Insta. We follow each other. We start talking a little bit about ourselves. It's actually nice.

She looks at me and frowns." I love my brother but he is dick....." I look at her curious of what she is going to say." Did you know about the plan? " i shake my head. I have no clue about what she is talking about. " well he likes to get younger girls and pretend he hates them then likes then out of the blue. "

"So I am just part of his plan?" She nods. " He always does the same thing. It always works, only thing diffrent is the damage he costs everytime. Depression, anger issues, on of them even suicided herself. " i gasp. " I have been able to stop some of them but not all. He loves to do it and I don't know why. The worst ting is that he makes you believe he really wants you and just when you fall truly in love he breaks you."

"Bruna has her fair share of this. She came up with most of the ideas. They are still together. It's really sad. I am so sorry but better to find out now and from me , then from him and later. " I started to cry. I lost my virginity to HIM! Why would god do such a thing to me! Did I do something to deserve it? I am dating a monster.

The waiter comes and offers us drinks. I tell Rafa to order a drink of me. She orders something in Portuguese , that I don't understand. My phone rings. It's a text from Neymar: where are you hon? "Don't answer, it will just hurt your self more."i nod. The waiter comes back to our table with drinks. My drink is really good, at least something in my life is good.

"Look I know its a lot to take in , but you are 19 he is 29 you still have a whole bunch of time to get a someone, he has time but not as much. My point is that maybe you should find someone that actually loves you, and if that fails , I can promise you that there will always be someone who does love you. You just have to find him."

"You mean :You don't get to choose if you get hurt in this world but you do have some say in who hurts you. " she chuckles" yes I just for got the quote. I love the fault in our stars. If only all men could be like Augustus waters. " i nod. I am still crying.

"Tell me how you and Neymar came to be? " I look at her. He is serious she actually wants to know. " We met at soccer i didn't like him at all then that same night we went to a party and lots of things happened in the we ended up having sex. Leo and Toni convinced me that it would be a nice change to be with him , I agree and in the game we have a conversation during half time. We end up making out. The. I get hurt we go to hospital. Then after we come back , Neymar asked me to be his gf."

"Bruna calls him and tells him about Davi. We come here. That's pretty much our story. "Huh? That's diffrent..." I look at her. What does she mean? "He always does the same thing acts mean sleeps with u and the next day leaves you then texts you the truth. He never takes anyone to his house. He also never goes with them anywhere...weird"

"Why does he do what he does?" She looks at me and a tear fall from her face. " i never tell anyone this...... When we were little our uncle used to try to rape me. Neymar always protected me but always got beat. Then once he had a girlfriend who beat him and did what he does now but to him.... I guess that now he just does it for revenge."

"Man............ I am in one HUGE pickle!" She looks at my obviously not understanding my vocabulary."Mess" she nods and our food gets here. We eat silently. Then she looks at me her eyes wide open."Neymar....." He is here? Great! Just beautiful. I am really in one bloody mess!

I just grab a napkin so he won't see that I was crying. Before I can do anything he is standing right beside me. He looks at me. His eyes filled with sadness when he looks at me. Why would he be sad! I am the one who got played! I am the one who got hurt! I should be the one crying! " Lara....." I croak. She doesn't meet my gaze. " why did u tell her! She didn't need to know! I didn't want her to know! Especially not now, with Davi hurt, and Carol dead! Did u want to make this harder for me! "

"She needed to know. It is better for her to know from me now , then from you or Bruna later. " Rafaella doesn't yell, she talks to him normally showing him that she didn't care of he screamed at her." They continue to argue. I have had enough! I grab my cane and walk out. I hear footsteps behind me. I don't turn around. Although I want to see if it really is him. I shall not look back, it just makes it more dramatic.

Neymar stands infront of me. He tries to talk to me but I turn and there he is again. "Lara please listen......." He says with tears in his eyes. As much as I want to kiss him and hug him right now, I shall not. He must learn that what he did was definitely not right. "I have listened, to all your lies about you want me to live with you, how you wanted to change for me, and a lot of other bullshit. How do you think it feels to have your heart broken so badly, and believe me you are not the first to break my heart but you are the worst, and everyday of my life I will remember this day, and cry my self to sleep thinking how i let myself get played by such an imbecile! "

"I ...... am sorry,I" i interrupt him. "Sorry wont cut it! Not this time! I let you use sorry when you sent me the note. You did so many things to me. You took something from me I can't ever get back...... You destroyed me. The worst part is you never even said that you loved me! I was....." "I DO LOVE YOU!!!" I stay looking at him in shock. I shake my head. " I LOVE YOU..... I Love you..... That's why I didn't want you to know! The less you knew about my past the better. But she came and told you everything. And I am not going to lie not anymore..... It did start as everyone of my idiotic games, but right away I knew you were different and I loved it. When I told you about changing, I meant it. "

" Neymar..... I...I...I love you but you broke me so many different times i just can't trust you..... I am sorry.... I do love you ,but I can't feel my love for you right now. All I feel is depression , confusion and anger and it's all towards you. You are right when you say I am different. I am different because unlike Bruna or any other slut I will not just go back to being in a relationship with you just because you told me you loved me."

He shakes his head"Correction Love as in now. Second ...... I never ever tell anyone except my sister that I love them , not even my parents. And definitely not Bruna. " he says it and the words make me feel relieved but I shall not do anything, I am still very hurt. "It's True..... Every word he has said now is true. " i turn around and see Bruna standing there beside her is Rafa. "I called her here to see if Ney was telling the truth. " Rafa mumbles nervously.

" it all is.... He had told me so, he told me he loved you and wanted to be with you so he left me that was why he took so long talking to me when he was outside on the porch. He said he loves you. And he never says that to anyone except Rafa. " I look at Rafa and she nods. I look back at Neymar his eyes watery. "I.... Just CANT , I can't just let you believe that if you hurt me I will forgive you with an I Love You, and that is not true. There are 3 strikes like in base ball. You have done 3 now you are out ,of my life. And I am out of the game. Go play it with someone else because I will not be part of this game. Rafa take me to the hotel please. "

"But you are Mrs Waters....." I look at him and chuckle. It's an angry laugh"Yes I am but you are NOT my Augustus Waters! He actually loved Hazel!" I walk towards the car with tears in my eyes. "I am in love with you and I am not in the business of denying myself the simple pleasure of saying true things." I stop but still give my back to him. "I am in love with you, and I know that is just a shout into the void, and that Oblivion is inevitable , and that we are all doomed, and that there will come a day when our labor has been returned to dust, and I know the sun will swallow the only earth we will have ,and I am in love with you" he learned the quote... He learned it for me...... For me.....

I don't say a word. I get in the car with Rafa and we drive away. Through the side mirror . I can see him crying on the floor. He seems that I am look and mumbles "I deserve this" i nod and look to the front. We get back to the hotel and i get the room and lock Neymar out. Inside is Davi Lucca and Thiago. They are asleep so I don't wake them i just go to bed without saying a word. All I can think is what happened to the roller coaster that just goes up Gus!

I am more than just a piece in his games.....