Seesaw

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   "Babe, do you wanna go with us tonight?" Jimin's voice could barley be heard over the music coming from Yoongi's studio in their shared apartment. Jimin was getting frustrated that he didn't get a response, "hey i'm fucking talking to you" he practically yelled as he stormed into Yoongi's studio. Yoongi just rolled his eyes at what had been said. "No, i'm not gonna go with you and your friends to a stupid party, id rather stay here and work on my music." Jimin sighed and walked out of the room, he was trying to maybe fix what they had lost. Jimin knew they were falling out of love because well he was the one who felt it first. He didn't feel the same whenever they kissed anymore, it didn't even feel the same to sleep in the same bed anymore. he guesses that what made it worse was when he told the older he didn't feel the same anymore but he wanted to try and work things out. ever since then Jimin goes to bed alone and they never spend time together. He finished getting ready and left a note on the kitchen table for Yoongi to find whenever he decided to leave his studio. 

   Yoongi heard the door open then shut, he let out a breath he had no idea he was holding. Why don't i just leave? He's thought about leaving while Jimin has gone out more times than he can count, he just hasn't had the balls to actually do it yet. He loved Jimin, at one point that is, He is just so confused because last month Jimin told him he was losing feelings for him and he doesn't know what to do. It really broke Yoongi, he's not the type of person so just give his heart to anyone; all he seems to be doing lately is staying in the studio all day, coming out out eat here and there then when he finally gets tired he goes and sleeps on the couch. He just didn't know what to do anymore, he was broke and lost. He shook his head and continued on with his work, he needed to finish this song and get Jimin off of his mind. 

   Jimin on the other hand was out with his best friends getting drunk, living his best life. "Give me another shot Jungkook!" he yelled over the loud music, luckily the younger had realized what he was told before Jimin had to yell again. They drank the night away, dancing with one another until Jungkook started to get touchy; sure they were very close and have cuddled a lot but this was something different and Jimin didn't want him to stop. "Wanna get out of here? head back to my place" Jimin could only nod because Jungkook was kissing his neck in the middle of the dance floor which was just someones living room. They headed back to Jungkook's place where things got very heated very fast. "Please don't stop" "i won't" Both of them panting as they were fucking. Jimin laid on the bed, Jungkook on top of him taking full control. Jimin had forgot all about Yoongi, he knew he would regret it in the morning but right now this just felt good and so fucking right, whenever they had sex it was never like this so Jimin was enjoying the younger slamming into him with full force. After a few more thrust's Jungkook had relaeased into the older, both of them breathing breathlessly and exhausted, "can we shower then cuddle?" Jimin asked softly, Jungkook nodded and they proceeded into the shower together. That night Yoongi slept alone in his bed, and actually cried for the first time since jimin confessed to not loving him anymore. 

   Yoongi woke up the next morning the exact same way he fell asleep, alone. He was sad but he knew Jimin probably didn't wanna come home last night so he stayed with a friend instead. He sighed and got out of mad, made some coffee and went straight to work in his studio; the music was too loud in his headphones he didn't even realized Jimin walked into the room.  Jimin had tears in his eyes and he wasn't wearing the clothes he left with, instead he was wearing jungkook's clothes that were way to big for him. Yoongi was still working until he felt a tap on his shoulder, he slowly turned around to notice Jimin crying and in different clothes, he had a confused look on his face but slowly took his headphones off and paused the track. "Uh, what happpened?" Yoongi asked slowly, Jimin just started bawling at this point, He had no idea what to even do so he stayed seated and let the boy cry. Then jimin started to explain "I had sex with Jungkook last night" Yoongi's blood ran cold, his heart shattered, he was officially broken but he didn't let it show. "What?" Yoongi's voice filling with anger, "Im sorry Yoongi, im just not happy and i can tell you arent either and i was drinking and just lost control i guess..." he trailed off, yoongi just getting more angry by each word that left his mouth. "if you were so unhappy you should've fucking left me when you told me you didn't love me anymore, i wanted to work things out with you but i can see thats not going to happen" he spat back earning a small whimper from the younger boy and he continued to cry, hot tears finally sliding down Yoongi's cheeks. Jimin was about to leave when the older decided to speak again, "I want you out of this apartment by the end of the week, ill give you time to figure out where you are going and ill even help you move but i never wanna see you again" The younger only shook his head in agreement before going into their shared bedroom and changing into his own clothes. Yoongi sat in his studio in silence, he couldn't believe what he was just told, he was so heart broken. 

   "I'm gonna go crash at a friends place, i still want your shit packed by the end of the week" Yoongi's voice had no emotion, all the younger could do was nod his head in shame, some tears left his eyes but the older didn't care enough to ask why, instead he left with a bag of clothes and walked.  Jimin sat on their once shared bed, sobbing. He knew he fucked up, but he also knew he wasn't happy in this relationship. He never wanted to hurt him like that, he wanted to just break things of on a good note and maybe they could still be friends, Jimin knew once he officially moved out he wasn't going to hear from Yoongi let alone see him ever again. He was going to have to get used to it, he decided t text jungkook and have him come over, he just needed comfort. Jimin must have fall asleep because when he woke up he heard loud knocks coming from the front door, he completely forgot he texted Jungkook so he was in a daze. "oh hey, sorry i was asleep" he smiled shyly looking up at the younger, "its okay, i brought some pizza and movies so we can just hang out" Jimin smiled again at the sweet thought and let him in, their night consisted of pizza, intense make out sessions, and sleeping through the last movie cuddled up together in the bed. 

   Yoongi on the other hand made his way to his friends house, he didn't answer when he knocked the first time so he decided to call him instead "hey Namjoon i'm outside" "Oh fuck sorry i'm coming hold on" He hung up the phone and waited until he heard footsteps and the lock turning. "hey bro" namjoon answered the door in nothing but a towel rapped around his waist, not the first time he's seen his best friend half naked. Yoongi nodded his head as he walked in, leaving his bag of clothes by the door along with his shoes. "You look good" Yoongi mumbled as he walked by to go sit on the couch, "Oh yeah? You like what you see?" Namjoon replied laughing. Actually Yoongi found him really attractive, like just someone he'd fuck on occasion, he likes Namjoon as a friend. Before Yoongi could speak again Namjoon left to his room to change, when he came back he had 2 pre rolled blunts in his hand. "You wanna smoke?" Yoongi nooded and grab a blunt from the younger, he lit it and took a deep breath in, letting the smoke burn slightly in his chest until he exhaled and he felt empty again. He wanted to feel something, anything at this point, he took another hit this time making sure it would make his chest burn and have him coughing. He smiled as he could feel himself "sink" further into the couch, him and Namjoon stayed like this for a while. "You wanna order some food?" Yoongi forgot to eat anything he was so upset and now that he thought about it he was starving, "fuck yeah dude." With that they ordered take out, laughing and eating together like old times. Yoongi hadn't smiled let alone laughed this hard for a while and he was enjoying it, until he got a text from Jimin. "hey hyung i wanna talk this out, i know i fucked up but please lets talk before i leave this week?" Yoongi clenched his phone tightly, he was hurt and tears almost left his face, Namjoon noticed and decided it was late enough they could just sleep instead of worrying about drama. "Hey lets go lay down, c'mon" he pulled Yoongi off the couch, put their food away and headed to his bedroom. "i can sleep on the couch Joon, its cool" Yoongi was about to leave again when namjoon stopped him, "what? do you not want to cuddle me anymore?" he said laughing "you know i don't think its weird, i like cuddling my best friend anyways" he said with a smile. Both boys stripped of their clothes and climbed into bed in just their boxers, Yoongi laid his head on Namjoons chest and sighed, the younger said nothing but instead he kissed the top of the older's head and held him tight. He knew he was crying cause he could feel the tears on his bare skin, he ran his fingers through his best friends hair until he fell asleep, soon falling asleep afterwards holding Yoongi close. 

~Let me know what you guys think, im really trying to improve my writing skills and i have a good idea for this story. this story is based on yoongi's song seesaw, it gave me inspiration and i really love the lyrics. i hope you all enjoy this story. thank you.~ Olivia