Seesaw

2.

   

*TRIGGER WARNING* please do not read if you are sensitive to suicidal actions. 

    the end of the week came by faster than Yoongi expected, he's been staying at Joons place and as much as he loves his best friend he also knows he's being a bother and he's so ready to get back into his own bed again. Jimin didn't text him to help move, the only text he got from him was "i'm gone, you can come back. goodbye" it left him hurt and he could have cried right then but he chose not too.  Yoongi got all his stuff and left a note on Joon's fridge, it was pretty early for him but he didn't mind, he walked for a while just enjoying how quiet it was and how quiet the streets were. he had time to think and he knew deep down that this was the right thing to do but the other part of him wants him to take jimin back, he wants the younger in his arms because he is already so used to this routine and its being taken away from him. Jimin cheated yet he would take him back in a heartbeat, pretty fucked up huh. he shakes his head as he's thinking of the younger, he finally reaches his apartment and walks in. half of the house is completely empty and there is a note on the kitchen table. 

"dear Yoongi, thank you for the last 3 years of my life, i'm sorry i hurt you so much hyung, i know i wasn't the best at times. thank you for loving me and showing me that i'm worth something, thank you for putting up with my insecure ass for so long, i'm always going to love you no matter where i am in life; i just hope you know that Yoongi. i hope you find someone who will never hurt you and make you so happy, thats all i want, is for you to be happy. thank you again for the lovely years, kisses, sweet nicknames, and love we made. i love you, goodbye. -Jimin"

    Yoongi sighed heavily to himself and ran his fingers through his hair, aggressively pulling on it and he let out a loud yell. he yelled so much his throat was starting to hurt, he fell to the ground and cried out. his heart was hurting so much, he cried and yelled until he had no voice or tears left to cry. Yoongi got up and walked to the fridge, he decided he wanted to feel numb, he didn't want to do anything anymore. He chugged the soju that was in the fridge and went straight to the vodka, taking a long drink from the bottle; his throat burning from the taste. He groaned as all the alcohol was starting to hit him, he fell onto the floor and just laid there, still taking drinks from his bottle. 

    Jimin on the other hand was taking everything very well, him and Jungkook went out on an actual date and are currently sitting on their now shared couch. "hey, i'm gonna go shower" Jungkook said with a smile, he kissed the top of Jimin's head and headed to the bathroom. Jimin nodded and smiled at the younger, he was happy. there was a part of him that felt guilty but he also knows he deserves to be happy himself. He still got a strange feeling, he wasnt sure what it was but he just felt sick to his stomach so he texted Namjoon. 

     jimin .   

"i know this is gonna sound weird but can you go check up on yoongi? i know i dont have a right to be worried but i have a weird feeling and it would help if you check up on him, you wont here for me after this." 

     namjoon .   

"yeah ill go check up on him, ill let you know what i find out. leaving now." 

       jimin .   

thank you hyung!

Namjoon sighed after putting his phone away, he grabbed his car keys and drove to Yoongi's place. "Yoongi!, open up" Namjoon is banging on the older's door because he wont answer. "fuck" Namjoon whispers to himself. he decides to text Jimin and get the lock code, once hes given it he opens the door to tee his best friend on the floor, crying, and drowning in alcohol. 

"Yoongi what the fuck?" Namjoon didn't know exactly what to do, all he earned was a small grown from the younger. The younger just shook his head, he took the alcohol away from him and then helped him up. He carried him bridal style into his bedroom. namjoon sighed in frustration while yoongi groaned out in pain. Namjoon too out his phone to let jimin know what happened 

    namjoon.   

"found him on his floor, hes been drinking  and crying. ill take care of him, you just focus on yourself. dont bother coming here either."

he got no reply from the younger, he assumed his message got across just fine. "c'mon yoongi, lets get you into the shower okay?" Yoongi only groaned in response, not wanting to get up or move a single muscle, yet he still complied and let the younger man pick him up and carry him into the bathroom. "Can i take a bath instead? my body is just weak and i'm not sure if i can stand for very long." the older asked, "yeah thats fine" yoongi sighed in relief.  He began to undressed himself slowly while Namjoon filled up the tub. "Okay, its done, you can get in now." Yoongi nodded, he lowered his naked body into the warm water, sucking in air sharply as it hit his ice cold skin, feeling like its burning him alive. 

"can you give me a minute, ill call you in here if i need you." Namjoon nodded and walked into the living room. 

He tried to get used to the warm water, it was so hot against his skin, like he was burning. he lowered himself more into the water, he didn't stop when the water reached his neck, he kept lowering himself until he was fully submerged, holding his breathe until he couldn't, letting all the air out of his lungs and swallowing water to replace it, his lungs filling with the hot water, he was burning from the inside out, just wanting to escape. He reached out for help but it was too late. 

"Yoongi!" Namjoon yelled while picking his lifeless body out of the water