Mind dump

its hard it hurts

it's to hot to sleep with sleeves on so i cuddle with your hoodie. i just know i'm gonna break down when i see you at school even if it's just a break it's still hard. i don't wanna take off my collar it's gonna be hard to not touch you or wanna kiss you.

but i know why this had to happen i fell out of love with myself and became to focused on my love for you things were falling apart and it's this or end things for good, we're both hurting and it's my fault

i'm sorry.

i hope i get better soon so this can be over soon. all i want is to be in your arms, for you to trust me again and look at me, and really see me not just looking at my problems.

i need you

please don't leave me behind
i'm surprised i got through the ACTS without breaking down

this is for the best though i'm not okay right now and we both don't want this and it's hard for the both of us so i'm gonna tr my best for myself to get better so i don't lose you okay?

i love you
you're my one
you're my everything

and the way things are right now are my fault and i truly apologize for that
i'm sorry it has to be this way

it hurts

i love you

*positive lock/home screens i plan on using and me trying to make myself feel better with a cute selfie