David hasn't spoken more than a few words to me since we filmed that last scene, when I make him answer by asking him questions on the phone he gave short blunt answers, we never met up anymore, he always told me he was too busy... I don't understand what I've done wrong, is it just because I left Doctor Who?? I had to, my character was spent, I'm tired, so tired. Ever since I found out about my Mum my heart hadn't been in it and the viewers could tell, if I stayed the show would die, and I have tried to explain this to him but he just won't accept it.
After all this time spent with David, all of the experiences we shared and memories we made I thought, I hoped that he would find it in his heart to keep what I thought was a great friendship going, I thought maybe at some point we could exceed that even, we could become more than friends. He was so lovely and is so attractive a girl can hardly help falling in love, especially after playing characters who were clearly in love...
Damn I can't believe she was right, she said I liked him and I didn't believe it, until he started ignoring me and then I realized what I had and what I'm now lacking, I don't know how long I can cope without the brown eyes glinting, the perfect mouth with beautiful white teeth sharing a toothy grin or a sexy smirk that went straight to your heart, a smile that seemed to go on forever, one to be shared for everyone. His love for everyone never seemed to end as he would just give to his fans, his friends his family, to me but then it just stopped, he seems to be shutting everyone out and I don't understand why. I just hope to God it wasn't my fault, I would die on the spot if I found out it was me who managed to break the great David Tennant, too crush that gorgeous smile, that innocent soul. Luckily I don't mean enough to him, to anyone to effect them in this way, who knew being unloved had it's rewards, you never had to worry about being responsible for hurting anyone.
