Difference doesn't matter in love | Ereri (on hold like forever probably)

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|SINCE IVE BEEN READING SO MANY SELF-HARM, DEPRESSION, ANXIETY THPE FFS I NEED TO WRITE ONE TOO TO GET MY DEPRESSION OUT IN THIS. BECAUSE IVE BEEN CRYIN FOR HOURS READING THESE SAD FFS YOU HAVE TO SUFFER TOOOOOOOOO|
We went to lunch after that. I sat with Eren and his friends again. I wasn't very talkative as the rest. They always had a story to tell about something cool that happens I their lives. Nothing ever happens in mine. I just sleep all day. I barely eat either so I can't talk about some exotic meal I had or something. Eren's voice snapped me out of my trance. "LeeeeeeevvviiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII-" He was basically yelling my name poking my arm furiously, "Jesus what?!" I said covering my arm with my hand. "Are you gonna eat that?" "No...." "Okay here Sasha." He said taking my plate and handing it to the girl who stole his chips. "Thanks!" "Why did you give it to her?" I said raising my eyebrow. "Because she asked nicely." He said. Jesus this child. We sit there for a while longer and Eren asks me a question, "can I wear your sweater it looks so warm...I'm cold." I wanted to, He was literally shaking, they really need to lower the ac in here. But I can't. I can't because he can't see my cuts.

-flashback M U S I C P L E A S E-

I locked myself in the bathroom while my mom and dad were yelling at me to come out. I didn't like how people treated me in school. Every time I feel someone staring at me i start having a anxiety attack. Running out of the classroom and crying in the bathroom stalls for god knows how long. My grades where dropping and I was being sent to detention more often. My parents got tired of it. They scolded me, saying that 'nobody's looking at you' or 'your over reacting!'. I quickly scrambled through the bathroom to find something, anything, sharp. I found a small razor blade and uncovered my wrists. I couldn't even count the amount of times I cut. I didn't stop on till I heard the door unlock. I quickly hid the blade and stared wiping myself up from behind the shower curtain. They never found out. They never will. Never.

-M U S I C E N D sorry-

"Um no sorry..." "awww okayyyyyyy I'll just suffer for a couple more minutes." I looked away and I felt that feeling again. The anxiety feeling I looked around and found Mikasa glaring me down. 'Jesus Christ just because i didn't give your freakin boyfriend a sweater your gonna kill me?' I whispered not noticing Eren heard me.

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I felt a small tug at my sweater and I turned around to see Eren looking down. "What?" (Just so I make this clear they are in study hall not lunch anymore) "Y-You do know she's not m-my girlfriend r-right?" "Um...I- of course I knew that she said she's your sister. That's ince-" "she's adopted." Do not laugh. Do not laugh. I'm literally choking. "But I don't like her like that I'm-" I raised a eyebrow at him. He looked down embarrassed, "i-i'm gay..." he said, it barely being audible. "T-That's Okay... I'm bi..." I said in a whisper. Oh gosh he's the first person I've told that. Why? I dunno. "M-Mikasa doesn't know that b-but if I told her s-she would tell mom a-and dad is coming home I-if she tells he m-might-" he stopped himself before he finished coving his mouth immediately. "He might what?" "N-Nothing! I was just b-babbling that's a-all!"s u s p i c i o u s. "Eren."  He looked away refusing to look my way. 'He likes Mikasa better...' he said that in a small whisper, so small I barely heard it. "What? What do you mean?" "Levi i-i can't tell..."

"Yes you can. I'm here."
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HAHA NOW THATS MORE SUSPENSEFUL KEKEKEKEKEKEKEKEKEKEKKEKEKEKEKKEKEKEKEKEKEKEKKEKEKEEKKEEK OKAY BYE. SORRY FOR IT BEING SO SHORT I NEED TO THINK AND ME WRITING THIS IS TAKING TO LONG!