Sebastian - #ToAllTheBoysContest

A Letter to my Love

Dearest Sebastian,
Maybe I should call you Seb, seeing as that's what I call you any other time. This letter is important though, so I'm honoring formalities.
I'm writing to tell you about your eyes. I wish there were words that would properly explain them. I wish I could tell you how the light dances off of them, how they glimmer when you squint from laughing. Speaking of laughter, I wish I could tell you just how funny I think you are, and how it baffles me that out senses of humor mesh so well together.
It makes sense though, seeing as I've know you my whole life. Friends since 1st grade, you and I. I get you, and I know in my heart that you get me too. It's a rare thing for two people to understand each other the way you and I do. I cherish that. I'm grateful to have you in my life, even if it's only as my friend.
I know that all we can ever be is friends. I've accepted that. Our lives are going in totally different directions. I'm about to start college, become an adult, and I'll probably change a lot in that time. And you...well you're joining the marines. That's what you've always wanted, and you've worked so hard for it. I'm nothing but proud of you for going after what you want and doing something so great for your country. These circumstances though, make it impossible for us to be together. I've seen how that ends for people, and I'm not in the business of getting myself hurt more than I have to.
If it were possible though, even if just for a night, to be with you...I know just how I'd want it to be. We'd go up to your room and climb out to your roof. You'd tease me about being afraid to fall, but at the same time comfort me by placing your hand gently around my arm and easing me out. Then you'd pull out your phone and play a song. Probably Saturn by Sleeping At Last, I know that's your favorite. (Part of the reason I like you so much is your impeccable music taste.) Then we'd sit there together listening to the music and watching the stars. We'd probably end up talking about how small we are compared to the universe. Then you'd make a joke about how I'm small compared to anything, me being 5'0 and all. Id turn over to give you a look.....our eyes would meet and lock. We'd hold each other's hearts through our eyes in the instance. You would lean in, and your lips would press tenderly against mine.
That would be it. That's all it would take and I'd be sold for life.
I hope some day you find a girl to live that dream with, one who will make you as happy as you make me, because Seb, that's exactly what you deserve.
-Rebecca