Dear Paul,
I just realized how scared I am of everything. What if I die? What happens after? That's not even just for me though. What will everyone that is around me going to do? Will they be able to just continue on with their lives like I wasn't even there? Oh god what will happen if when I become old I am in pain? Or not one of my family members thinks of me on my birthday let alone spend one minute of their day to call. What happens if flowers stop being beautiful? What happens if the sun stops shining or the moon and stars stop glowing? What happens if I stop loving you?
