another life || kth x jjk

sleep

CHAPTER 3
SLEEP

             

My mom slept on the couch again with the TV on, and in her uniform. I quickly made my way to the shower, I knew I smelt like alcohol and had Ji Min's dried drool over my shoulder. I didn't want my mom waking up and seeing me look so disgusting. She'd probably regret letting me stay out the night.

By the time I finished showering, I made my way to my room. When I entered I saw a shopping bag on my desk with a letter attached to it.

I knew you wouldn't use the money I gave you to buy shoes. You'd probably use it to buy, some groceries instead. Hopefully, you like these, the lady at the store told me these are what kids your age have been wearing.

Love you, baby

I realized my mother had never bought herself anything with the money she earned. Her shoes were in a worse condition than mine, and unlike the other women in the block, she never wore any jewelry or nice clothes. Just a necklace, she said my father had given her when they were engaged.

The necklace was beautiful but I hated it. Just like how I hated my dad. To me it symbolled broke promises and lies, but to her, it was a something special from her first love. She's occasionally the purple gem as if to make sure it was still around her neck. I didn't think she noticed and I wonder if it was the same like when Jeong Guk when subconsciously look at his watch. Maybe his watch meant something to him like my mother' necklace symbolled her first love.

As I sat at my desk, in the quietness of my room, I realized I wondered a lot, and I still didn't have any answers. I still didn't understand a majority of the things that happened around me, and I hated it.

Over the course of a month, I started working extra hours at the coffee and studying until late at the local library. Spring break was over and after that day my mom bought me new shoes, I wanted to do something special for my mother. I wanted to buy her a new necklace that she could wear and think me about of instead of my father. I wanted her to depend on me when things got hard for her and I wanted to prove myself to her. I wanted to prove that I'd was be different from my father, and that I'd give her a new life he couldn't.

It was late Saturday night when Jeong Guk asked me to come over to his house. He said Ji Min would be there too and I had a feeling he said that only because he was uncomfortable with me since the night he told me he was gay. Still somehow we'd gotten closer. Or at least close enough that we hung around each other whenever we were bored.

We laid in his backyard staring at the sky, the stars were easy to see since we didn't live in the city and they shined brightly and beautifully. Ji Min laid between us, and I didn't need to be smart to know Jeong Guk had laid at the end on purpose. I couldn't understand it.

"Is it only me who feels like you've been working so hard the last month. Or were you always like this?" Jeong Guk asked.

"Oh, you realized that too huh..." Ji Min grumbled.

"I'm trying to get a good grade on our finals. It's almost Senior year for us and I doubt any colleges will accept me if I don't keep up a high GPA."

"What college do you want to go to." Jeong Guk asked.

"Jeguk University. I'm trying to be a doctor and they have the highest success rates. Plus, they have the best hospital in Korea."

Jeong Guk stayed quiet for a while and I wondered if he'd been dozing off like Ji Min was doing nonstop for the last five minutes. The finally he said, "I know the head of the school. I'm sure I could put in a good word for you when the time comes."