Scars of love

//chapter 1//

Clara's P.O.V.

Today was July 30th. One of the most depressing days of my life.

It had been a year since Grant died. Each little day that went by got harder and harder.

I sometimes think it's all my fault. I could have been there. I could have done something. How did I not know?

I never saw the scars on his body or the mental scars in his mind.

Was there something I could have said or done?

Today Grants family is having a viewing. My whole family is going. Even Harry flew in from the U.S. to come to the viewing.

"Clara, we're leaving in 10 minutes" my mum said through the closed door.

"Okay mum" I replied

I took a look at myself in the mirror. My whole look was depressing.

I'm 17 years old and I look like a 5 year old that just lost her puppy.

**knock knock**

"Come in" I said softly

It was Harry.

"How are you doing?" he asked

"The truth or a lie?" I replied

"Truth please" he said

"I can't do this" I said looking him right in the eyes.

He grabbed my hands and put them in his warm hands.

"Yes you can Clara." He said with a powerful voice.

"I could have done something! It's my fault, it's my fault!" I cried and fell to the floor still holding his hands. "

"Clara, Clara! it's not your fault!" He shouted while grabbing me and holding my body tightly.

We stayed like that for about 5 minutes until mum came in.

"Are you guys ready?" she asked

"Yes, we are" he replied

"You can do this Clara, I know you can" he said while holding my hand.

The car ride was long and boring and it mostly consisted of mum and Harry talking about One Direction and cats.

We arrived at the viewing. Grants family and a couple of friends were there. Basically we were all gonna stand around Grants grave and talk about how amazing he was and then it'd be over.

Atleast that's what I told myself we were doing.

Grants dad started to speak.

"Son, you were an inspiration to many and I wish I could've seen you gone off to uni and do something amazing in the world, but I know your in heaven having the time of your life. Love you son" he said whilst crying in between.

His mother began speaking.

"You are my little baby. I'm sorry I couldn't be there for you when you needed me. If there's one thing I wish I could change it's how much I talked to you. I never had that many deep conversations with you and maybe if I did, we wouldn't all be here right now. Either way your up in heaven having the time of your life. I will always love you. She started to cry hysterically for about 5 minutes.

A bunch of friends started speaking, including my mom. She talked about how much she loved and appreciated him.

I wanted to say something, but I just couldn't.

"Clara, would you like to say anything?" Grants mum asked me.

"Y-yes" I said unsure of myself

"Grant you were always the person who could make me feel good about myself. Everytime you saw me you would ask how I was or if anything was bothering me. I didn't do the same to you, which I will regret for the rest of my life. You were such a life changer and you knew all the right words to say. You will always be one of the greatest people I have ever met. You will forever be in my heart. I love you so much. I can't wait till I see you in heaven." I said and the leaned into my mum and started to sob a little. She rubbed my back and it was over.