A Sunken Place
I'm in a sunken place
Surrounded by quicksand
I’m living the half life of a boy
Inside the body of a man
I wake I eat
I sacrifice sleep
I work I struggle
I strengthen yet weep
Because being able to do 100 push ups
Is useless
When you're in a place misguided
I let out my anger on the field
I relieve stress through peaceful violence
But when the 48 minutes are over
I'm angry
The hole is still just as deep
Because I have to return to the same house
Where wolves are sheep
Where right is exclusively wrong
So I hold my tongue
Leaving me like a soda bottle shaken
Acid waiting to be sprung
I can't run
I can’t hide
I can't escape
If I don’t survive
I'm surrounded by darkness
But close my eyes and see light
I wake up and strive towards it
And try as I might
It's an unreachable goal
True happiness
Because I see it
I know it would solve everything
I've realized I need it
Yet I can't have it
Cuz expressing my feelings
Always leads to rejection
Love should be my armor
But instead it's my weapon
And my wounds are self-inflicted
I desperately need someone to come heal me
But how can someone lay a hand
If they cannot feel me
I wake till I weep
I fight till I sleep
But I will never leave this sunken place
When it's just me
