My Hero, My Best Friend, My first love......... My FATHER

Confession

My name is Cordan Ellis. I am 38 years old and my height is 6.2. I have ice blue eyes with grey flecks and brown hair with slightly tanned skin.

Currently i am sitting infront of my son's grave holding his diary in which he wrote all his feelings the diary which name is BOND OF FATHER AND SON.

Its the last treasure of my son. And i held it as dear as my life. I couldnn't get the courage to read it. I try everytime but just can't but i will read it today

Its been 5 years since i lost my baby boy my son. The only one who loved me truelly who loved me with his whole who admired me for whom i was HERO his best friend and first love

I lost the most precious person of my life the person wom i hated every fiber of myself, the person for whom i wish die the one who loved ne unconditionally with all the hate i give him

I regret.. i regret every second of my past life and pray everyday for one chance to fix everything i beg to God please give me a chance i will do anything for that chance anything

This is the story about a FATHER who was cruel to his son who has no right to be called FATHER but after everything i did to my SON he still hold me dear,

he still thought of me as his hero.

His last words still rings in my ear all the time and i regret even more i hate myself i hate what i did to my boy whom i supposed to love and cherish.

This is the story about a FATHER's regret.