Toalltheboysivelovedbefore

To my crush

My dearest,
I started to have feelings for you when I wasn't even sure it was okay. Your eyes have enraptured me and every time I look at you I am lost in the emotion that your eyes bring me. You take me home and I cannot express how safe you make me feel. I remember starting to like you when I thought that it was a sin to love you. I find myself thinking about you at 2 am, thinking about your laugh, your smile,the way your nose crinkles up when you express your feelings. I am constantly in awe of how authentically you, and unapologetically amazing you are. I was always certain that I would never find home again, and I believe with my whole heart that I have found home in you. You are my light, and my inspiration in this unforgiving society. I can say in full certainty that I would still be hiding who I am, if it weren't for you. It's not a good idea for us to be together, as we both know, not only because where we are in our lives at the moment, but because if we were to love who we want to, we risk hurting those we love, and those who love us. Originally I was desperate to keep you in my life, just for me, but now I have matured. I have realized that to truly love someone, you have to let them grow, and flourish. I intend to always trust you fully and let you grow as a person, and become more beautiful as the years go on. Some days, I'll admit that I'm selfish, bratty and cocky, but since knowing you, I've tried to learn from my flaws and continue to grow each and everyday. You are everything that I wish to be. Smart, funny, peaceful, and selfless. To be honest, it's been a whirlwind experience for me. To have loved and been loved by someone as authentic as you, but I do realize that dreams fade. They end, and they fall apart, but I have been alive long enough to know that if a dream breaks me, I must be strong, not only for myself, but for my loved ones. You taught me that, and so many other important things that I shall keep close to my heart.
I will always cherish the times we had.
I will always remember the name Madeline, for she is the girl I love.
-Lara